People dont understand that I am who I am cuz of my past. I haven't excepted my past and I blame myself for it. The things that have happened in my past makes me a stronger person. I cant help but to blame myself for the things that have happened to me. I feel like when I was little I didnt know what was going on and I though it was the right thing. I remember always going to the park that was just down the road from my house. I was 3 when my mom and dad let my sister and I go by our selfs to the park. I had naughbors that were always mean to me but they were like brothers to me. I have another naughbor that I thought of him as a Papa. My sister and I didnt know better, but i feel like i should have done something. I shouldnt have left the house without mom or dad. One day my sister figured out what was going on and she told mom and dad. They were really mad at us for it. That is why I blame myself. That naughbor that did that to us went to prison. By that time I was about 10 years old and my parents were scared to let me and my sister do anything. I wanted to just be a little kid and play outside. My naughbors that were like my brothers alway came over and we did do much game. It was fun tell i got hurt each time. Dylan he took a baseball bat to my back, Collin, he threw a meddle rod at my head, along with both of them throwing golfballs softballs, rocks, and pussing me out of trees and also down steps. Somehow I never got a concution or broke a bone. I never cryed from all of this cuz they did it so often that it started to not hurt anymore. I have a very high pain tollorence. They moved across town my freshman year and now I dont talk to them. I blame myself for the pain that happened I blame myself for my parents not helping me with what went on. I was always the one that got grounded and Collin and Dylan always got away with things.
