i woke up with a smile on my face. it was izzy and i's 1 1/2 year today. i know the half isn't very important, but it was important to us. i had a letter written for her that i started last week and i'd finally give it to her tonight. i had planned everything this time and i wanted it to be perfect. i had my outfit hanging on my closet door. i got up running to the shower so i could get everything done on time. i put on a shirt and leggings and tied my curly hair back into a bun. i planned to spend all afternoon picking up her favorite things to make our day perfect.
she's the girl i want to marry and spend the rest of my life with
i have everything i need. i've gotten her favorite candy her favorite food, and her favorite movie and it's all going to be at the spot we had our very first date. it was all how i had planned it to be. i slipped on my dress and did my makeup. i wore a red dress because red was her favorite color. i had the letter i wrote for her in an envelope and i slipped it under the ribbon on the candy box. i put everything in the backseat of my car and looked at myself once again too make sure i looked ok before driving over to her house. i got into the car filled with joy and smiling. after a 10 minute drive i pulled into her driveway. i decided i'd bring the candy and letter to give to her before we went out. i walked up to her door almost skipping. i was about to walk up and knock until i glanced at her living rooms windows and through the mesh curtains i saw her on her couch.
kissing someone else.
i froze right where i was standing. i dropped the box. i hadn't yet processed what i had just seen. tears had slid down my cheeks before i had finally reacted. i couldn't believe it. i didn't want to believe it. but i saw it with my own eyes. she looked happy, smiling and kissing that girl. a girl that wasn't me. i'm not sure how long i was standing there in shock and crying but izzy's mother pulled into their driveway. i was going to be so fucking embarrassed. crying on their porch. she quickly walked up to me.
"lea? honey what's wrong why aren't you inside?" she was rubbing my shoulder. i wiped my eyes as she tried to get me to go inside the house with her.
"no, no i'm okay, i was just leaving."
"well, ok if you really don't want to come in i'm not forcing you too." she hugged me and unlocked her front door. i began to slowly walk to my car, my head hanging low as izzy hurried out and stood at her steps.
"kalea i-" i shut my eyes tightly.
"please please don't say anything. i already know, i saw isabelle." my voice cracking in sadness. she frowned.
"i thought i meant everything to you, i clearly didn't." i tried to hold back a stream of more tears.
"no, kalea you do mean everything to me-" i cut her off.
"clearly not." i say pointing towards her living room window.
"isabelle, you looked so happy with her. don't lie to me." she starts to tear up a little bit. i need to leave before i cry more too.
"but lea we were supposed to be together forever. are we really over?" her voice was shaking.
i turned back and nodded. walking away slowly in silence.i left the box on the ground,
the letter was still on top of the box. i hope she doesn't read the letter. because she no longer belongs to me...
