1/19/20
dear isabelle,
today would've been our two years. but you ruined it. and i'm trying to get through this the healthy way even though everything reminds me of you. i also know i'm never actually sending this, but thank you. thank you so fucking much for all the memories we made together. for connecting with my love language like nobody else could. you showed me what it's like to feel happy. thank you for encouraging me to eat and everything else you encouraged me to do. it hurts so much to even think about you but i have to move on. i have to learn to live with the fact that we are over. and i won't get to feel your touch again. but some things in life are not permanent, and we weren't permanent, even though i wanted us to be. you are my only safe place, but i'll learn to feel comfortable alone now. thank you for being there whenever i needed you most. and even though you didn't love me as much as i loved you, i still wish the best for you. and no matter how much i beat myself up for it, you will always hold a place in my heart. i love you with everything and i hope your happy with her.
goodbye,
kalea
