Can't Be saved

Can't Be Saved - Part 2

I decided to just sit under the stairwell. Drawing pictures, then the bell rang. I saw Dean walk by the stair well and he looked at me. I just sat there. “Nhh…” I groaned and got up and walked to him. He rolled his eyes. “Don’t be like that…” I said and he just stood there. “Look… I know you like me and shit…”

“So why’d you curse me out and storm out”

“I didn’t curse you out…”

“Yeah you did”

“No I didn’t”

“You did”

“I didn’t”

“You did”

“No, no, no I didn’t my god! Listen to me for fucks sake!!” I yelled.

Everyone stopped and stared at me. “Fuck are you all looking at?!” I said and everyone scattered. “Look, Dean… My father is a bad man… He used to beat my mother and my mom left me without taking me with her. Now my dad beats me instead. I figured every guy is like this now and I try to avoid them all… I also tried to avoid you because I don’t want to get close to any guy. But you I-I fell for you and I hate the fact that I did… and I hate the fact that I did…” I stopped talking for a minute to catch a breath and I heard a giggle. I looked over to see nothing. I looked back at Dean, whose eyebrows were raised.

            “Your father beats you? Hun, is that why you don’t like me?” He said. “Ahh, no, no! I like you I do it’s just tha-“ I was cut off by a pair of wet lips pressed against mine… “Mmn…” Dean pressed his body against mine and held on tightly. I hesitated a bit and struggled to get out of his grip, but after a while I gave in… He pulled back.

            “There’s something about you that makes me smile. I don’t know whether it’s the way you look or the way you act towards me it’s just… I love you, I do. It may sound crazy but I do like I just fucking met you today! But I see you and my heart skips a beat… and if I haven’t told you that I loved you I think that I would of exploded eternally… Ha, if I let you go you won’t run away… Right?”

            I looked up at him and nodded. Slowly but surely, he took his arms from around me and I stepped back. I really did want to run away but I told him I wouldn’t. “Ha, so much drama on the first day, huh?” I joked and he smiled. The bell rung and I held my stuff close to my chest. My heart was beating fast. I never felt like this ever before. “I’ve got to get to class… Biology, I’ll catch you later.  I walked off and looked back to see Dean smiling and waving, then he turned around.

            I loved this feeling! The feeling of excitement, of joy! Of being loved!!!  I know he wasn’t joking… the look in his eyes told me so. I wonder what lunch he has, hopefully he has my lunch. I walked into class and looked around. Everyone was in groups. “Detonate?! Is it?” a voice spoke. I looked over and nodded. “Great, Welcome to class, I am Raymund Rosales hehe! But you call me Mr. Rosales! You’re in seat twenty-three group… Ah, three. Group three” I laughed. “You’re weird.” I said under my breath.

            Class flew by fast, school did too.  Today was actually a good day regardless of the three bitches that fucked with me. I saw Dean at lunch and we exchanged numbers. Walking down the hallway to get to my bus, my phone vibrated in my pocket. I pulled my phone out of my pocket to see that dean texted me. “Hey, Detonate!” it said. I smiled and got on my bus, while I sat down in the front I replied to him, “Hey dude, what’s up?”

            The bus ride home seemt long. I was texting Dean the entire way home. That Dakota girl kept bothering me and talking to me and stuff. When I got home, my dad was standing outside of the house. Quickly, I shoved my phone ion my pocket. I’m not allowed to have guy friends I guess… “Where have you been?” He said I looked at him “Where else would I have been on a Monday?” I mumbled “Idiot.” I walked past him in the house and my phone vibrated loud. “What’s that?” My dad said. “N-nothing…” I sped into the house and he followed me. “Let me see your phone.” He reached his hand out and waited for me to place my phone in his hand.