Shaylee's Suicide Notes

Halyee POV

 I took a glimpse at myself and I looked completely dead. I was so extremely pale my eyes were red,and puffy. I spend all day and night crying. I feel asleep crying,because there was no more tears left. I looked up and I saw the white dress I threw my pj's off. Putting on my dress, well white blouse and a pencil skirt. I did my hair as usual and broke down crying.

 The house was completely dark and quiet,but when I went outside it was nothing but sun. The light  burned but I didn't seem to care. I keeped getting sorrow stairs as I walked. I didn't need there pity all I wanted was to be alone. "Poor thing,"someone in the background said.

 I ignored them and continued walking until I reached the funeral home when I opened the Dore I saw pictures of Shaylee everywhere. Nothing,but smile on her face. When she was a baby to this year.

 I began to think of all the times I was mean to her and called her fat,ugly,worthless. I felt like even more shit.I walked in the main room everyone turned around to stair at me. Tears fell from my eyes and slithered down my checks dripping to the floor.

 "Shaylee,"my mom cried.

 My younger sister Shaylee Passed away 2 days ago out of suicide no one knows the reason. I don't even know the reason. I haden talked to the real Shaylee in what seemed as forever. She had changed alot. Her appearance was the same,but her attitude wasn't the Shaylee I knew.

The Shaylee I knew was so bright always laughing and smiling even when she cried she smiled. She was really honest and funny.Then out of know where she became more secrete about everything she did. It scared me every time I would ask were she was going she always said the park.

 She started becoming more meaner no one could boss her around even the kids that bullied Shaylee were scared of her. She was turning into a monster and no one would save her. I never thought she would go suicide. We lived fighting,but I wouldn't want it any other way.

 I got out of my trace and looked at her physical body which was in the coffin. I kissed her forehead not carrying that I had kissed a dead body. I dropped to my knees and whispered "Why Shaylee why would you do this."

 Then the song Lullabies from All Time Low came out. She always said that if she ever died she wanted that song to be played over and over at her funeral. She loved that song so much more than anyone could imagine. I never understood why? Maybe the meaning behind it.

  "Please Shaylee don't leave me,"I cried holding her hand. Her wrist were full of cuts where she had self harm. "Don't leave me I can't live with out you."

 Donny my older brother was behind me ready to give me a hug. He lost his glow and looked like hell. Dad didn't look so hot either I guess the only one's looking normal was the twins,but they didn't know any better.

  "Why is Shay in the box?"Baylee asked "Shay come out of there." Silence was all I heard other than tears and crying.

 "Shay wake up...wake up stop sleeping,"Kaylee screamed pushing Shaylees body. I hated mom for making our names rime. But that wasn't the point here.

  "Baylee go with grandma.. you to Kaylee,"Donny said.

 "This doesn't feel real it can't be real Donny,"I told him choking in my tears. "I know Shaylee was everything to me she was the only one who ever gave a crap about me,"he said angily. No that I think of it we all ignored each other expect Shaylee. She was always there for everyone,but we were never there for her.

 We walked and sat next to mom and Ronnie. A video clip showed up in the big screen it was Shaylee as a little girl.

 "Hi I'm Shaylee,"she waved to the camera a huge smile hit my face. Just when you think you can't cry anymore. "I'm 5 and I'm a singer,"she sang. She was so cute another one came out her playing the Piano.