Shaylee's Suicide Notes

Slowly Uncovering The Truth

Haylee's POV

 Mom woke me up for school I didn't want to go,but the school district only gave me 2 weeks off. Can't they see I'm not ready,I'm sure they've lost a loved one too. I know when I get to school people are going to be saying I'm sorry for you're lost.

 "Do I have to go?"I asked. "Yes you're 2 weeks are up,"mom nagged.

 It took me a while to get up considering its still dark outside. I picked some random clothes,because I have no one to impress. My hair on the other hand I did care on how it looked. I spend my time doing fixing it up making sure the volume was just right.

 I got my things kissed mom and dad on the cheek and left to the bus stoped. I waiting there for a while just standing there listing to music. Full blast ofcorse the bus finally came and I entered. I felt like I was entering hell, it was a unexplained feeling.

  I took my time getting on. Each step I took felt so slow-motion. The bus driver was giving me a pity look.I just looked down and sat on the first empty seat I could find.My head was against the window I grabbed my hoody and snapped it on.

 Everyone in the bus was staring at me like I was some kind of monster.I could see through the reflection.

  Until we reached the school I placed my phone on the pockets of my hoodie. I tired not to catch any attention as I head for my class. I tried to hurry it up so I could be the first one inside the class. A couple of students got there before me,but they didn't notice me.

  I don't think anyone did up until the teacher stepped inside.

 "Good Morning everyone,"Mrs.Jones said while placing her belonging on her desk.

 "Haylee surprised to see you here,"she said "I didn't think you were coming back until another week or so."

 "Yeah they only gave me 2 weeks off,"I replied. "Oh okay sorry for you're lost dear,"she said.

 "Yeah thanks,"I replied softly

 I placed my head on my desk when Ryan Lorance came in. I thought this kid was in  Juvenile and ofcorse he sat in the empty desk next to me. I haden seen this guy since last year he haden evan crossed my mind once of twice.

 "And you are?"Mrs.Jones pointed at Ryan.

 "Ryan Lorance,"he replied,but I was amazed of how much his voice changed it was so deep.But I soon put my head down.

  Once the lesson started I began to get sleeper and then I closed my eyes and I was completely out. Until Ryan poked me "Hey do you have a extra eraser,"he smiled.

 "Do I look like Staples?"I replied making him laugh,but I don't remember it being a joke. "No but really,"he said.

I gave him an eraser and after that he wouldn't leave me alone. I was so desperate to sleep that I wanted to shoot him so bad. "Quite down you too,"Mrs.Jones ordered.

 "I'm not talking its him,"I pointed to Ryan. Ryan looked at me with bitch written all over his eye's.

 I glared at him with a evil eye "I didn't want to be rude you know."

 After we finished our work the class was at a awkward silence. "Why is it so quite,"he asked.

 I took a deep breath "I don't know."

 "What do you know,"he asked talking as if I were retarded

 "I just don't know,"I whinnied irritated.

 "What the hell crawled up you're ass?"he asked expecting answer.That's when I realised the whole class was listing to our stupid meaningless conversation. I keeped yawning and popping my back. Tyring to keep it cool,but I guess everything I say is somewhat interesting to them.