The start of the year wasn't much but in October I decided I would never lie I would help everyone depression suicide so I did I helped so many people I was their light they smiled they laughed they became happy they got relationships they grew to be amazing people but I was left with their thoughts their pain and it only boosted what was already there my sadness went up my depression got more attached to me like glue I couldn't find the love for you that's what I told myself in mirror I didn't love you anymore you are such a wuss you are fake you are the biggest mistake and at that very mistake I'd taken it to a friend ask for their piece of mind and it led to a argument a that left us broken we had taken a break 1st in the 3 years of being friends I thought it was coming to a end I prayed to god to get rid of my mistakes they you left me that night I was your knight but I guess another one saved you I failed you I stopped talking to you we both was broken and needed other people 4 months go by I text hi and time just didn't go by my happiness went bye then you said hi my heart died and came back the knife was removed from my back it was magical and it almost seemed to practical that you go to someone who hurt you but I honestly cared to much and started to love you I didn't wanna go but at the start of my 9th grade few weeks after you left again but my life change and rearrange and flip to a new page and that where I am right now
