Born and gone

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"Your little girl?! You left us when she wasn't even born yet..."

"I know, fallon!"

"You don't know the half of it... I had no money, Jackson after working three jobs to support you and your music career and then you took that money and left. And I got left with a two month old baby growing inside of me and you got fame. I built baby furniture on my own at eight months pregnant with my dad and brother to help and then I went to the hospital and gave birth alone, and then brought her home, was up every hour of the night whilst finding out I lost my job because I can't have maternity leave longer than three weeks, and then I had to turn the radio off whenever you began to sing because I didn't want her to listen to the man that left us, and then I had to explain to her why she doesn't have a dad like all her friends do...and then , shall I go on?!"

I watched as the strongest girl I had ever met , broke in front of me. All the emotions she held together for Lacey all these years , all the walls she built to keep the flood back broke down. Tears streamed down her face as guilt sprung on me and my heart was crushed... why the fuck did I do what I did.

"Fallon... I was younger and stupid. I wanted fame and to be noticed by people that matter-"

"I noticed! I noticed you before anyone else did,  I believed in you before anyone else did. I supported you to be able to afford to record that song that's now your greatest hit... but I didn't matter did I? Because I couldn't sign you or give you designer things-"

"I know you were and are the most important thing to me ever... I know that now. But at the time that was all I wanted because I grew up with nothing... I wanted to have the people that said you'll never be anything to say oh shit I was wrong."

"And yet here you are... saying what they said. You're no better."

"Fallon,  it's my fault. I've been so shit, and I know that now. I know you're worth now because I have everything but still I'm not happy because you're not there."

"How can I believe you? I was so hurt and broken and alone when I met you, and you let my walls come down and let me actually truly love you... and then you left. You see my dad always warned me of the guys that just want sex, the dodgy guys that would be at the corner store or that man on the bus... but the real guys that'll really hurt you, are the ones that convince you they're nice people and different from all the others that hurt you before , but then end up to be exactly the same but just living a lie. Because they're the ones you least expect to hurt you... they're the ones that make you feel like there's actually good people out there... You made me believe in real movie love in a world where love is sex and lies...and then you made me hate it."

"I'm sorry."

"You can see Lacey, Jackson. Give her the relationship with a father she deserves, but we are never going to be the same again."

"I remember the first time I saw you.." I began as she let her hair down from her pony tail... it was up to her collar bones and a caramel colour at the ends but still that black colour I fell for at the top. She looked at me with wide eyes waiting for me to continue as she folded her arms. "I busked outside that coffee shop every Saturday... I watched hundreds of people walk by and spoke to most of them, but non of them captured my attention like you did-"

7 years ago:

The sun beamed down on me like the spotlight I longed for. Music blasting out the speakers ever side of me that me and my best friend Dylan made in the shed at the bottom of my garden. I sang as people went about their Saturday afternoon, change being thrown into the guitar case every now and then and some people stopping to watch. Then I saw her... Long black hair in a high ponytail, glowing tanned skin, winged liner and lush lashes bringing out those feline eyes as the sun beamed on her button nose and the pink gloss on her perfectly plump lips. Everyone looked around confused as I realised I had completely stopped singing as soon as she came into view... she was sipping her coffee on her lunch break sat on the bench she always did , watching me sing with her eyes closed and a slight smile.

I carried on playing for half an hour , glancing at her every five seconds until she got up to leave, but today... today's the day I'm going to finally ask her out.

"Wait!" I shouted as I jogged behind her. She turned around looking confused and looked around her adorably. Her black teddy bear coat complimenting her black work uniform.

"Me?" She said as I nodded.

"I was... I was wondering if you'd want to go out with me sometime?"

"No chance."