but i still want you

untold

I didn't know how to put it, I didn't want her to get mad at me for using my powers, but I hope she just understands my point of view.

"That's what I wanted to tell you. I came back to you. I have so much to say, but now being able to spill everything I can't find the words. They said you died of natural causes, but you were just too healthy! I knew you wouldn't leave me without telling me goodbye! I was so angry at you. I thought you were being selfish and was only thinking about yourself, but now seeing you again. I know that you never wanted to leave out of the blue. I just miss you so much," I cry in her arms.

I didn't know what was happening to me I wanted to tell her everything I experienced and all the emotions I held in, but nothing came out. She left me speech less.

"Baby, you know I would never do that to you. Life is meant for the living, so if I was taken by death then hell, God just need some more angels to help him out. Stop beating yourself up about it. It wasn't your fault, and you couldn't have known it would happen," she whispered, crying as well.

The room was full of emotions, she told me how she didn't like how I used my powers for this, but she was still proud of me anyhow. She treated this as our proper goodbye. Something I could finally feel at ease with. I caught her up on how life is, how mom and dad don't like talking about her, and why my lip was busted. Overall, this day couldn't have gone better.

That was when 2 o'clock showed up, when he showed up and showed his true colors. We heard rustling outside the side door in the kitchen, so I went to check it out. I was shocked to see what I found, my dad. I told my grandma and I pleaded that I will open the door, but she insisted she do it. She told me to leave the room so he wouldn't see me, but I stayed as close to the entrance just in case anything happened. There she went, to open the door and be face to face with him.

"Oh, hey mom, I tried ringing the doorbell, but nobody opened the door. I was just wanting to check if anything is okay," he coughed.

"Well, I'm fine. Thanks for coming over." She spoke, while she was closing the door, he rushed to put out his foot to stop it.

"Can I come in? You know I live across town, and now it's rush hour since everyone wants to get home. May I have a cup of tea?" He pleaded.

It was obvious by the tone of his voice that something wasn't right, but she still let him in. I had no doubt that he would do anything to hurt her, well, that was until he put the white cloth over her nose and I saw her fighting back.

"Dad, stop! What are you doing? Leave grandma alone!" I yelled at him, he looked at me shocked of my presence.

"What are you doing here? You left for your photoshoot early in the morning and said you won't be back until Friday," he said letting go of her and hiding the cloth.

I ran to my grandma, helping her standing up. I walked her over to a chair and gave her water and space to catch her breath. All I could think about, so this is what really happened.

"What the hell are trying to do? Trying to kill her? Is that what you want? Drug her and make her death look an accident? Well, I am here now and I am not letting that happen. Not again," I exclaimed at him.

He looked at me in shock, I ruined his plan and I found out the truth. Her death wasn't just some accident or due to natural causes, it was caused by my dad, the guy who I looked up to, the one who helped me out through high school, the guy who did everything he could to get me into college, to have a better life than he did. I hated him, what he became.

"You don't understand. Once you're a parent you'll understand. You will want to do anything to protect your child. That is what I am doing for you. I am trying to protect you from her. She is a liar, she's been lying to you ever since you were little."

I look at my grandma, and all she is doing is shaking her head, I never saw her as hurt.

"Modi, do you know why I named you that? I waited to name you because I wanted to see how you would behave and name you by your actions. Your name means angry considering you would whine constantly, and then as a toddler when you didn't get your way, you would make a scene. I thought that was best fit for you, but when Kalae and you wanted to take V back, it hurt. You wanted nothing to do with him when he was born, so I decided I would raise him, but when you showed responsibility and when he didn't do something you didn't like, you kept your temper in. I was so proud. Look at you now. I love V like he was my own son. I would never lie to him," she cried out in heartbreak.

"Stop lying! You were the reason I was always angry! You never treated me like a son. I want a better life for my son! You treated me like I was invisible. That's why you deserve everything I say to you," my dad yelled, while pulling out a gun.

All I could think about is that this is different. He didn't kill her with a gun, the autopsy just said natural causes nothing to do with a gun shot.

"Dad stop! This won't solve anything! Think about how much pain everyone will be if you do this? Is that what you want? Do you want me to be sad? Lonely? Feel so tiny?" I begged him.

No words could stop what he was about to do. He raised the gun to my grandma, put his finger on the trigger and then pulled it. Everything went black.

"We gather here today in honor of Kim Taehyung. He was a beloved son of Kim Kalae and Kim Modi. He is leaving behind his two younger siblings Galaxia and Leander that he loved dearly. His grandmother has some words to say," the pastor stated.

I looked around the room, many people showed up to his funeral. I saw all the beautiful pictures he took from when he was little to the man he was today and all I could do was smile. Everyone in this room loved him, not because he was a famous photographer, but because he was always true to himself. He never wanted to see anyone sad, even at his death I know that he would want everyone to be happy. Everything will be alright.

"My beautiful boy. You will be dearly missed. You are the light of my day. I love you to infinity and beyond. Wait for me my, Tae."