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~HONOKA KOSAKA SPECIAL~ (#1 on 'KosakaHonoka')

To clarify,this is a "Depressed! Honoka x Supportive! Female! Reader!"

Honk I made Honky depressed --

Just a warning,but the title is very self-explanatory.The following chapter mentions explict content and rather serious that may damage the reader's sensibility.If you're not comfortable with these stuff,you can click away :) I won't judge.

Anyhoo,watch how Honky grew to #1 in a particular drean aside from being a idol! (Like the special is suppossed to be dedicated.)

*wheeze* Help this is the longest chapter --

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HONOKA'S POV

"I can't....handle the pain...."

Negative thoughts swirled at my mind as I was still in bed,not finding any reason to get up from bed,I mean....What's the point of it? It's worthless.

Just as I was going to curl myself for the rest of the day,my phone vibrated.I sighed in frustration.I opened my phone and scrolled through my other notifications,curious of who sent the message.

"Honoka! You'll be late! Get up from bed already!" -Umi

"Oh wow....What a great message to start off my day." I distruntedly said as I turned on the lights at my room.You could see my books and other personal stuff messed up,but there are other things that stood out.

At just about everywhere,you could see posters of a Light-brown haired girl,with her hair tied in a loop.I caressed one of the posters gently,but then later punched it,just making me wince in pain.

As you can tell now,I was literally head over heels for Minami Kotori,Muse's designer.Ever since childhood I even fell for her,up until now in High School,

When all of these ruckus haven't even started,I used to dress in a different style I don't normally wear and go on the streets of Akiba just to buy merchandize.I'm talking about nesoberies,posters,figurenes,you name it.I was that much in love.

But that all ended,on that dreaded day.

Valentine's Day.

FLASBACK

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When Valentine's Day came,I came prepared with a nesoberi for her,a bouquet of flowers and manjuus that I have prepared the other day.I asked somebody on where she was and they told me behind the school.

And as simple as that,as I arrived there,my heart was broken into a million pieces.There,I saw Umi,pinning Kotori and kissing her.Just by the look,Kotori was reciprocating it.

My hands felt weak.My feet felt like there was no bones.My world was tearing apart,as simple as that.

"No Honoka,Faito Da you! Mhm! Faito!" I hear a Angel version of me say as she appeared beside me.I didn't respond.

"No,No! Accept the fact that she doesn't love you.You are a useless person third-wheeling this relationship! They don't need you!" A Demonic version of me opposed as she appeared at the side opposed the Angel version.