"I want to stop."

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My eyes flick over to him across the room. But I don't want anyone to notice, so i look back at the teacher.

I don't like him, I don't love him, I don't want anything to do with him.

"Group 1, Nanako, Konoha, Kagi, Atsuko," the teacher says, reading off the form in her hand.

"Please start your projects as soon as possible," Ms. Minako finishes, after reading out everyone in our class' names.

"Fuuuck! I'm with Atsuko- he's so annoying akjdjsjdnejhfudehhc!!1!1!1" I mumble to my best friend- Glenn. "It's okay- you can ask me and my group for help," he says, amused.

"So! When are we gonna meet up?" Atsuko is already discussing the group project with Konoha and Kagi. "Hey- Nanako! Come here!" he yells across the room.

I run over.

"What?! Can't we just text? I can't stay back today anyway-" I say, hitting him on the head with a broom.

"Listen here you little shIT-" he says, laughing- and chases me. I run and try to hit him again, stealing his recorder (did i mention he was playing some weirdass meme song with that thing oN REPEAT??) but when he attempts to kick without hitting me- he kicks too high and knocks my knuckles. I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD OUCH IT HURTS-

Atsuko runs over and I yell, "yOu hIT my hAnD-"

"Oops! Sorry, sorry."

He pats my head as he apologizes.

Goddammit.

Does he treat everyone this way? And why do I like to think he doesn't?

Just stop.

I blush, but everything's too chaotic for anyone to notice. Girls yelling, boys screaming- me.. blushing.. a-and him.. patting my head-

ARGH! whAT AM I THINKING-

But I don't love you. Or like you. I don't want anyone to think I do.

It's an infatuation, an infatuation, an infatuation.

heck, I'm not even gay-

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