Feelings Just a Bunch of Feelings

You and Every One Else is Stuck

I heard it. I didn't want to but I had to.
I heard it. It hurts to hear it but I had to.
I had to write it down because it might brought up later.
I heard it. I do not understand why it's so different though. Why it's hard for me to hear this name but I can say, talk, write, and hear the other. They both hurt me. But I lived through it I never thought it no this could be labeled as a word as bad as that one. Those who didn't even hurt me and "love" me I very very strongly dislike but I have bits and pieces of love here and there for them but I could never love them fully.  It would be too hard to.

My life is filled with small shade of happiness but filled almost entirely with darkness. Yes it might seem sad but really you get used to it. It after a while feels normal. 

You will or want to try.

Its ok it'll only hurt in the process and in the end. We'll be here waiting for the next new comer. Here at the deep, dark, bottom. We're here waiting only to welcome you.

You will or desperately will want to be ok.

You might be or very much are scared. Wondering what happened to your once bright world. Don't worry we all asked our selves that once.

You might be or very much are depressed.

That's ok, we wont judge. Her, Him nor I will judge. Its ok to be because even though we might not want to admit it we all are depressed deep down.

Some more than others but most are whether we like it or not.

You might ask your self, how can they not judge? Are they even mentally stable? Can I trust them? What's really going on in their heads? Are they secretly judging me. 

We won't judge. We're mentally stable. You can trust us because each of us has been through shit in our lives. We don't judge because we choose not to. We are very neutral. The effects of our problems has numbed us to the point where we feel but our mind isn't the same. Its been altered in many ways more than one.  

Yours might be altered as well. Who knows it all depends on just how far we're close to reality. The farther you are the more oblivious you'll be to it all I was at one point just like this. But the closer I got the more my mind altered. We still feel emotions. He still has times where he can manage his where as for her there will be times where they can get out of control as well but not to bad. Its the same for me as well its the same for us. All of us.

Whether we like it or not we cant escape those emotions. 

You can't

I can't

He can't

She can't

We're human these emotions sway like a pendulum but, oh so very quickly. Its because of these emotions we make the higher uppers look down on us with pity.  You can try but you can't rid yourself of those emotions and well if you do then you must be cold, and very much not alive.  We all can be subducted in to the vast river of flowing emotions. whether we like it or not its because were human.  You Might Not Like It but in the end we're ALL human. We all try even when we say we don't.

You can ask your self.

Why live? Why did I get up in the morning? Why leave my beautiful bed in the morning only to want to crawl back under those covers? Why put on that fake smile when on the inside at this point your drowning in your own tears? Why plaster my face when I'm so sick and tired of trying? So what's the big whup?

 I don't know no one knows but I think some of us have the gist of it though. We try because we're human and we might hate it but its natural instinct. We live for a reason. That reason changes but it gives us all one feeling.

hope

Whether

We

Like

It

Or

Not

We're here. Here on this Earth. You might have submerged deeper than the surface of the river into a dull state but that's where we are. We are all in different states and we travel pretty fast at that as well. The deeper you go the sooner you meet us. You might be a new comer. You might of been here for a while. Who knows? Then again for those who haven't got the gist. We can help you climb but once we start its on you to find your way out. There's one and only one unless you have objects or people to hold. There's one way we can start and its starts with the part of you that all ways keeps guessing. Wanting to know what will happen next. If you choose to stay or leave. 

There's a point to all this madness. Like a said no one truly knows but we kind of have the gist of down. What of me even writing this?

Its to let you and other know there is a point whether we like it or not we can calm the madness. In the process your going to lose so much sanity. We all are and still are that's never ending. Like I said you get used to it. So I'll ask again. What's the point?