Project Blurr (Avengers x reader)

memories

third pov...

"So....let me get this straight, you're basically Cap, made to be a weapon but you also have the ability to stop time?" Tony asked. y/n had been explaining to the Avengers for at least an hour now, Steve, Tony, and Bruce looked upset, the others looked sympathetic." yep, that's about it" y/n answered.

Three people, in particular, were thinking how she beat them, Natasha was mad cause y/n broke her wrist weapons, clint was still upset about her remark on his bringing arrows to a gun fight, and Thor well he was just impressed a Midgardian could throw him like that.

Bucky was upset, why would they do this too her? His eyes never left y/n, he still didn't know why she had this effect on him.

your pov...

I was now sitting on the table that I was previously cuffed to. Answering all the questions they asked. The whole time I could feel Bucky starring at me. I shrugged it off and kept answering their questions. I was ok with the questions they were asking until Bruce asked: "so how did they inject the serum and the 'Timetwister' project".

Frozen. That's what my body was, frozen. Bruce's question made memories of that just flood back. My heart started racing, my hands were trembling, breathing erratically. I didn't know what to do. "y/n? are you ok?" Steve asked, getting closer to me. I couldn't, I can't, talk about that. It would just be too hard. "I..I need some air" with that I dashed out the first door I saw, making a B-line for a door next to a window. Almost pushing Steve out of the way.

Once I knew I was out of sight and hearing range I broke, collapsing on the cement with my back on the wall, I was a sobbing mess. It's been a year but I still remember the procedure like it was yesterday. Scary, painful, scaring.

Buck's pov...

I know what it's like to be the experiment so does Steve but it was different for him. Some needles with the serum done and done. Me, it was several things combined, I still have nightmares and it's almost been a year since I was brought out of its control.

"was it something I said?" Bruce asked. Of course, he doesn't understand. "you don't know what happened to her, it may have been something like what happened to me, something I don't like to talk about" I said to Bruce. I sound angry, why do I sound angry? my hands clenched into fists

"Buck? you ok?" Steve asked. I looked over to him to see a worried look on his face. "yeah, I'm fine, I think I'm gonna go talk to y/n I'm worried about her" I didn't wait for anyone to respond I just left the same way y/n did.

your pov...

I was sobbing uncontrollably, clutching my knees to my chest. Flashes of needles and masks kept popping up in my head. They messed with my head too. They erased any and all memories of my family. I have no childhood memories, I have nothing except the memories I've made on the hellacarrier. They did this as sort of a reset, a clean slate if you will, so they could just feed me all the info they needed me to know.

I was brought out of my thoughts for a second when I heard a voice "y/n?" I look up to see it's Bucky. I immediately hid my face in my arms and knees, not wanting him to see my red, tear-stained, puffy-eyed face. "s-sorry I-I ran off l-like that" I stammered. I could feel him sit down next to me "it's fine, are you ok?" is no an ok answer?" I asked, still hiding my face. "no is definitely an ok answer" he almost laughed.

He's the first person to be genuinely concerned for me, now granted I had Ava but she was assigned to me as basically my nurse and help when it came to my powers, we became friends a few months later. But Bucky? he doesn't even know me and he came to check on me.

"why did you come out here?" to check on you, when I looked at you after Bruce asked you that I saw someone who was remembering something they didn't want to remember, like me," he said. I let my face peek out to look at him, we made eye contact I quickly hid my face again.

Why am I like this with him? I'm shaking and I feel.. nervous? What is this!? I still hadn't let my head out from behind my arms and knees. Scared to let him see me like this, defenseless.

Then I felt a hand on my shoulder which made me almost jump off the ground. "Are you ok? You're shaking" I could hear the worry in his voice. Why was he so worried about me? he doesn't even know me. "I'm just dealing with memories when Bruce asked me that, they all came flooding back, the needles, the masks, the brain wipe, all of it and on top of that I had no one, literally no one to confide in but I pushed back those feelings because I'm a secret agent, secret agents aren't supposed to have feelings, right?" I said, finally unhiding and wiping the tears off my face.

"that's what they wanted us to think, to not have feelings, but we're human beings, we're going to have feelings like or not even if they try to brainwash them out of us" what do you mean us?" I asked. "I was an experiment too, a H.Y.D.R.A project they called 'Winter Soldier" wait you're the Winter Soldier?" I asked, "yeah, is something wrong?". Do I tell him I was sent to Siberia to get info on him? or do I lie because I don't know these people anf I'm a secret agent? "no, I've just heard that the Winter Soldier is a scary, uncontrollable Russian spy not ..well..you" I lied

"ты такая милая ( you are cute)" he mumbled in I think Russian while staring at me with a smile "what did you say?" Nothing" he lughed "just don't believe everything you hear, I was like that, long story short, 100 years ago I fell off a freight car, Russian scientists found me, scrambled my brain so they could use me as their personal weapon". Wow, he's got it worse than I do and even I thought my case was bad. "I'm sorry" was all I could say. "I probably look and sound like a pansy compared to you" are you serious? you just took down two highly trained spy's and Thor and you think you're a pansy?" he asked almost laughing. "well when you put it like that, I guess not" I giggled.

There was silence, I still didn't know what was going to happen to me all I knew was I'm in big trouble.