Rants

Suicide/thoughts

I want to end this pain, I have tried two times. These scars on my heart grow every second I breath. I want to cut, knowing it is bad. I just find the blood calming is all. Letting it slide down my wrists. I am not suppose to do it though. I am not doing it because I made a promise not to. I tried a few years ago to swallow sleeping pills  to kill myself then a month ago I tried to hang myself. I was lucky enough the second time my friend immediately called me and called me down. I watched My r and it helped with my negative thoughts a bit, but they started to grow again....I hate this.. I hate them.......I hate everything