City Girl and Country Boy

Waverly

After my brothers finished yelling at me about cutting myself, they left. Well everyone but Wyatt. They are taking turns to stay in my room until they know I am okay. Which pisses me off. So I called all of them back in here.

"I promise I won't cut again. Just leave me be" I begged. "How long have you being cutting? When did it start?" Wesley asks disappointed. I know they are all disappointed. I'm still confused about how they know I began to cut. My door was locked. It's weird.

"I just started back up today. Only because I talked about my ex boyfriend a little bit with you West. And I started to cut when...when dad past away" I said quietly. It was quiet for a moment, but then they all sat on my bed.

"Alright. Long as you don't cut, we will let you be free. We won't tell mom since well she basically hates us all. Anyway, don't do it anymore. If you even have the thought of cutting...come to one of us. Call us. Text us. Alright." Weston said. "Alright. I promise." I said. They all sighed in relief and we began our group hug. I'm so lucky to have these four as my brothers.

But, unfortunately luck does go away at times. Like when they all appeared when me and Luke were having a special moment that I wish never ended. I liked the feeling, but I can't let it happen again. I won't let it happened again

After our group hug they left and closed my door. I made sure they fixed my door since they broke it. Those buttholes. Hehe. I turned my music back up and laid down staring at the ceiling. The medical wrap they put on my arm was getting on my nerves, but I have to leave it on they all said.

I love my brothers to death, but sometimes they can be way too annoying. I can't believe today was only Wednesday. Whatever. I got up and decided it was time to clean my room up and air it out. I turned my music down just a little bit. Then I opened the doors of my balcony and then I opened the windows to my bay window. Which all's it does is allow me to stare at garden and woods. My brothers are scared of the woods.

So that is one of the reasons I go there a lot. I then gathered all the trash and put it in my garbage can. It's just paper anyway from when I go to draw and mess up.

I put all my dirty clothes in the hamper. I'm too lazy to take my clothes out so. The maids are coming tomorrow morning to gather our stuff. They came three times a week. Tuesday, Thursday, and Sunday.

Which if I must say I'm very thankful for. I put my pens back in the cup holder on my desk which is close to my balcony doors. I decided I wanted to rearrange my room. I moved my bed closer to the balcony doors, for when I leave the doors open and the wind can hit me. I moved my desk back behind my bed some basically. So when I look up I see my bed and balcony doors. Or out the balcony doors. I then moved my bookshelf to the corner my bed use to be in and put a lot of my books on it.

Then I moved another shelf to the back left corner of my room that holds my trophies and medals and pictures. I put some pictures of my dad up. Some of my whole family.

Some of me and him. Some of him and my brothers. Or just him. Or my mum and him. When my mum was happy. I know we're all just a reminder of him to her but she still needs to be a mom to us.

I feel like I lost both of my parents.

I then went to my TV area and organized it a little. Then I went into my closet and cleaned it up a bit and organized.

Then when I finished I started on my homework and once I finished I decided I was going to keep my balcony doors open tonight since it's a little cooler out tonight then last night. I closed my bay window. Then I shut off my music.

Then I shut off my lights and turned on my purple and black and yellow and orange Christmas lights. Yes. Halloween colors. I turned the green and orange ones on that are around my balcony door.

I love to hang lights up in my rooms. I then remembered that I totally forgot to shower. But I felt too lazy so I decided I take one in the morning. I laid down and closed my eyes. Letting darkness consume me.