Love Honey

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March 30
Oh my god I'm so high right now.
I'm snacking on those restaurant style tortilla chips and the salty taste in my mouth is so damn good, but my mouth is also dry as shit and there's no drink in sight.

Weirdly today I didn't hear from any of my friends. I'm starting to get the feeling that I'm always the one putting in the most while they get away with doing the bare minimum.

So here I am. The Office playing in the background and I have to pens in my hands. My body feels heavy. Has anyone ever had that feeling? maybe it's because I'm not sleeping good enough lately.

You think I could go back to live with my dad? That would be the best. maybe that's what it is. I just want to go home. I'm trying and trying to fit in and be good to actually try and make friends. But I think I miss my home.

Actual home.

My eyes feel like weights and I'm struggling to keep them open right now. Sorry journal I'm just an open book tonight.

You understand don't you?

This is normal
right?

Back to school tomorrow. Hopefully that will soothe this unsettling feeling. But who knows.

I bet my mother would laugh if she knew I was actually writing real words in this. You think she would notice me then? That our relationship wouldn't have to be such a tight tango around the fucking room.

We keep hitting the corners

Ew look at me. I'll be fine. Always am

Check in shortly

-honey