5SOS Song Series

S1: Amnesia ~ JulQuen

// Amnesia - JulQuen //

          Enrique drove on the streets of Manila with his radio on full blast, playing their song. It has been a while since she left  but whatever he did, he still couldn't get her out of his mind. He really can't believe that she left....

    He drove by the park they used to go to whenever they wanted to hangout...

     The memories came flooding back to his mind... He thought about their last kiss and all the good memories they had together.......

           He did not know what made him do it but he fished for his phone in his pocket and unlocked it.. He scrolled through his contacts and when he found the name that he was looking for, he pressed call and it rang four times before she answered the phone...

" Hello?" The person on the other line said.

" Hi Miles."

      Yes it was Miles... You thought it was his ex but no..

      He still couldn't call her after that incident....

" Enrique! Bat ka napatawag?"

" Ummm.. May itatanong lang sana ako. Pwede ba?"

"Sure. What is it?"

"Promise me you're gonna say the truth?"

" I promise."

" Is Julia okay?"

     Julia Montes.... Quen's one and only.. the love of his life.. the girl of his dreams.. and the girl who broke his heart..his ex girlfriend..

" Yeah. She's doing just fine. Is that all that you wanted to ask?"

" Ummm Miles?"

"Yes?"

      Enrique sighed heavily before asking the question that he wanted to ask the whole time.

" Did she already moved on?"

" Yes.. In fact, she is already in a relationship. I'm so sorry Quen."

" No. It's okay. I've got to go now Miles. Thanks for the info."

" Welcome. Bye."

" Bye." then she hung up on the phone.

     He tossed his phone on the passenger seat and ran a hand through his  hair. He's been crying for months now. He's so messed up without Julia right beside him.

      Does she feel lonely even though she's with me? Does she read the letters I wrote for her whenever she gets hurt by the things I said? Wasn't I enough? Of course Quen you weren't enough, that's why she easily found a new one to replace you.

       He answered the questions that were running through his mind the whole time. Then suddenly tears came streaming down his face when the heartbreaking scene flashed backed through his mind.

" I can't do this anymore Quen. I'm leaving. I'm sorry Quen. I j-just c-cant do.. do this.." Julia said as her mascara ran down her face.

" I-I c-cant under..stand you. What? W-wh-why?"  He asked. Quen didn't know what to say nor do. He was confused about how his girlfriend was acting right now..

"I'm leaving the country. I just can't do this anymore. I don't want to hurt you. I j-just can't Quen."

His eyes grew wide and shock was written all over his face when he heard her statement.

"  What?! No! What about college? We still have a few months left before we graduate. You can't leave us! You can't leave me...." He said as tears continued to stream down his face.

"I'm just going to finish my studies there. I'm really, really, really sorry Quen but I have to do this. For me. For US.." she said wiping the tears that were falling from her eyes, smudging and leaving black mascara stains on her cheeks and shirt."

     He sobbed so hard after the memory flashed back.... He still couldn't get over her. He still misses her so much..

      He reached for his phone on the passenger seat and looked at the pictures that he took with the love of his life.

       He always liked to see them whenever he misses her. He felt alone and miserable without her always being around. All of his friends asked why for the first time, she didn't come with him when he and his friends went out. He couldn't say that they broke up cause he himself couldn't accept the fact that he and Julia broke up.

      It hurt him because she was happy and she already moved on while for him, it was really hard to even hear her name cause he hasn't seen her and bond with her for months...

     It was like they never happened. Like their memories together was just some stupid dream. She already moved on while he was still suffering from the same amount of pain  he felt the moment Julia left him.

      While scrolling through the images, the radio suddenly played Amnesia by 5SOS..

" Great. Just great." He chuckled at how ironic it was cause the song basically tells what he was feeling right that moment.

    

      A lot of thoughts ran through his head. What if he woke up with her right beside him? What is all of this was just some twisted dream? He'd hold her closer than he ever did before. And he'll make sure that  she'll never slip away and none of this would have ever happened.

     The image of her with mascara running down her beautiful face in his head made him breakdown,lose it and free all of the tears that he held back for months now. He just cried and hoped that all of this wasn't real..wasn't true.. wasn't painful..

       Cause he knows that all of this wasn't a joke but he wished it was.. and he wasn't fine at all....