Don't Make Me Walk When I Want To Fly SEASON 2: Worthless Pride

CHAPTER 6: Day 6

Chapter 6

Day 6

Iwaizumi heard Makki's voice from the other room and he moved without thinking. He rushed – he almost ran when he caught him by his collar and slammed him to the wall. He heard his parents behind him saying something but Iwaizumi didn't do anything.

He didn't want to punch Makki. He didn't want to so he didn't do it. He just stood there, clutching his friend's T– shirt, not doing or saying anything.

He wants to die.

Iwaizumi froze and let go of Makki–

Oikawa wants to die.

He didn't know how he put the jacket on – or when he had put it on. He only knew that his parents struggled to hold him back from going out of the house. He only knew Makki was speaking to him but Iwaizumi didn't hear a word.

Iwaizumi thought he told them not to follow.

Iwaizumi also thought that it was a cruel joke how he has been gifted with all of these plus days – only to realize Oikawa died in every one of them.

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What would Iwaizumi's life look like without Oikawa in it?

Iwaizumi grew up with him – he learned how to tie his shoe, how to play with cards and lose in a manner that was acceptable with the help of his best friend. Iwaizumi has never opened his eyes and did not see Oikawa at least once during the day.

If he dies, I'll never see him again.

Iwaizumi's heart clenched as he bit down his bottom lip until he could feel the iron inside of his blood with his teeth.

The water was red.

He shut his eyes and saw images. Oikawa's half opened eyes – his arm bleeding out because of his own decision–

"...I just hope you'll always have someone who helps you along the road..."

"How can you say that and then leave me alone?" Iwaizumi said through his teeth. "How can you look at me knowing that you will..."

He leaned back on the bench – and took a look around the park where he sat. No one was there besides him. Behind him, there was a building with a painting on it. Iwaizumi was sure he had seen it somewhere before. Blue and yellow and black and a little green – it resembled a town and a starry sky. He turned his head up to the sky. The sun was shining through the leaves of the trees – so green, vivid, and lively.

If Oikawa dies, he'll never see it again.

Iwaizumi wondered why Oikawa would try to do something like that. He knew it was no way that it happened because of his family. His family loved Oikawa with all their hearts.

How would Oikawa's mom have reacted to her son's suicide? How would his father have reacted? His sister? Or Takeru?

There was something ambivalent in all of this. Oikawa loved his family. But his pain – his desire to end his suffering seemed bigger than the love he felt.

This was something major.

Iwaizumi was looking at the clouds above his head, let the sun wash him over with its light and sensed a calm breeze dance with his skin.