Dear Villads
I am sitting down here
at our beautiful oak three piano
with our daughter on my lap
her chubby fingers linger over mine
as we play our melody.
I want to tell her about you
The ghost from my past,
You were always there
You were everywhere
we could never remove our masks
I let my guard down
For your eyes only
You gave me scars
when I was young and unafraid.
How many nights does it take to count our stars
that's how long it will take to fix her heart
Oh baby, how I wanted you
All I ever wanted was the truth
I cried for you during my morning sickness
I resented you
because you were never there
In my doctor's appointments.
The first sonogram nearly broke me.
I was so alone.
I had so many plans for you and me
This was not a fairytale
She knows all your reasons
She just can't believe them
How did you move on so easily?
What have I done?
every time she tries to fly
She falls without her wings
She feels so small
She just wanted you to hold her hand
be in your plans
Someday you will know about her
Someday she will know about you
I just wanted the love of man
That where our trouble began.
she just wanted to be in your plans
