I loved him, from day one, I knew. He was going to be important. I didn't know what type of love we would have but I knew it was going to be special.
But now. You know me to well. You have figured out a way to get stuck in my brain. And now here we are, or right where you want us to be. Don't ask me about my feelings, I don't even know what they are. Don't tell me im pretty and sweet when we both know you have only said that because you want my attention.
And I admit, I gave it to you. Is it so bad to enjoy your company. Your tender smile, that you think is ugly however I think of as cute. Your loud laugh, which it funny on its own. Your hilarious jokes and the way you can change my mood in a second.
But is this what I want, all I know is that looking at you makes me smile. But that's wrong
So stay away. No matter how much I beg, I can't afford to lose you too. To be hurt by you, or hurt you. I know how relationships are, they start of beautiful, it feels like it's all a dream. But they all end the same way. Two people who once said they loved one another now can't bear to look into the others eyes. That's when we wake up.
I love you, I do. But I could never tell you that. You are different. And no matter how sweet, kind, loyal, humble you are... I can't do it again. I can't lose you. Not for a dream. I love you, but we will both have to wake up soon.
