It has been 4 months since Shannon came back from Canada and told me she was pregnant. I know I seemed put together at the time, but I was really losing my shit. I am not ready to be a parent. I still love her and I want to help raise this child with her. I just do not want to disappoint her or this baby. What am I supposed to do? What if I am not ready by the time she gives birth? What if I drop the baby? What if- what if- I run out of what if's? I am slowly losing my mind. Well, maybe not so slowly. Just breathe nice and slow, okay. I'm okay, I just need, I need...What do I need? I look to my left to see Shannon sitting up on the bed watching Chicago Fire on my laptop. I guess she didn't notice me having a complete mental breakdown in my head for the past ten minutes. She looks so beautiful. Her hair is in its natural curls, which I love. Even though she does not like them for some reason. Her cute little baby bump is finally starting to show. I mean I guess the sayings are true because she is actually glowing. "What?" She said, turning her head slightly to the right to look at me. I am now realizing that she has indeed caught me staring at her. "Huh?" I said looking at her like a deer in headlights. "You're staring," she said, looking at me in amusement with a sly smirk starting to form on the side of her mouth. "I'm gazing," I said, smiling at her. "It's creepy" She said with her right eyebrow raised. "It's romantic" I said, moving closer to her, if that is even possible, given that we are laying next to each other on our bed. The close proximity of our faces made us both start laughing. She coughs a little bit and puts her left hand over her stomach resting it there. "No, but seriously why were you looking at me?" She asked, now intrigued before bringing her attention back to my laptop lying on top of her legs."I don't know, I was just thinking how beautiful you look" I said, smiling at the small reflex smile she did. I know, I'm smooth. "Oh wow, you're good," She said with a slight smirk on her face."Yeah, I know... and you know what else I was thinking about?" I asked, closing my laptop and putting it on the nightstand on my side of the bed. "What? What did it get you thinking about?" She asked, laying back slowly on the pregnant body pillow I bought her the second she said her back hurt a few weeks ago. The website I bought it off of said it is supposed to provide soft hard sturdiness for her back. A "soft hard sturdiness" that is what it actually said, like that makes any sense at all. But, I don't say anything because Shannon has slept 100 times better than she was before, so hey, I guess it does work. Anyway, seeing her laid down with her hair fanning around her face is making her look like a very sexy mermaid and for whatever reason that seems to be doing wonders for my very obvious growing boner. "How sexy you would look in front of that mirror watching yourself get fuck" I said smirking at the shocked look on her face at my very forward words. "Oh...um...okay. I mean if...like do you want to, uh. I'm just kinda lost for words right now, um. I just didn't expect you to say that" She said, chuckling at her own awkwardness. "Sooo...um" She said, stuttering through her sentences. "Get up" I said, looking her up and down while I was hovering over her beautiful body. "Huh?" She said, still looking up at me with the stunned face she possessed a few moments ago. "Get.Up." I said looking at her with a straight face so she knows I am serious."W-What,why-" she stuttered again, chuckling slightly at the fact she can't make a complete sentence. "Because, I'm going to fuck you in front of that mirror. Like I said earlier. Did you think I was joking?" I asked while I moved to the right side of the bed to stand up and take off my clothes. I am already shirtless when I reach past my midsection to unbuckle my belt.
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