Untold Feelings of ViceRylle

The First Cut Is The Deepest

Karylle's POV

Once in my life,

I've met an extraordinary guy.

A guy that I didn't expect to change my life

He was Vice, my gay best friend.

If there was someone who gave me strength,

It was him.

He never left me behind,

Instead he made me feel so special.

All he wants is to be with me every day. . .

"I won't let anyone hurt you K.", that's what I usually heard from him.

Then suddenly, I fell in love with him.

I didn't know how nor  why, but I just did.

I know that it was wrong,

And it would be unacceptable for him.

Because he's a gay and I'm his best friend

I don't want to lose him,

And I can't see myself without him.

So I used to love him secretly.

Until, that day ruined everything.

The day where I confessed my love for him.

It was the day where he just refused everything, everything on us.

"No!"

"I'm a gay!"

"We're friends!!"

That's what he told me before he walked away.

I admit it, it hurts me so much.

And I can't accept that,

He's now avoiding me.

He ignores my calls and texts too. . .

He doesn't want to see me

So far from the Vice that I've ever knew

Yesterday, he texted me

"K, just forget about me and I'll do the same too. Goodbye."

I felt numbed and my tears started to fall.

I didn't expect that it would be happen to me.

I thought he won't let anyone hurt me,

But he just did. . .

And he's the one who did it.

I don't understand, why does love so unfair???

Because of this f*cking love, I've lost my friend

A friend that everyone wants to have. .

I chose to love him but he didn't choose to love me back.

One time, I asked myself.

What if Friendship didn't come between us?

Could he love me then??

It is a question that I really don't know the answer.

But the one thing I'm sure is. . .

I miss him so much

And I hope that one day. . . .

I'll be with my best friend Vice again.