voices; doil

eight

I laid in the hospital bed, again. I was still traumatised and couldn't move. I knew what was happening around me but I didn't dare to move. I didn't want to and didn't have the strength to do so. 'Taeil?' , I heard a soft voice. 'I'm sorry, I really am. How was I so dumb? Why didn't I see some signs? I'm really sorry.' , he sniffed and I looked at him. It isn't your fault so stop crying.' , he stopped crying and looked at me. 'It doesn't suit you.' , he stood up and hugged me then he left.

time skip
I was home now. I'm not okay. I only talked with Doyoung since the incident. My friends tried to talk to me but I just can't. I can't talk to them. I don't know why but I can only talk to Doyoung.

time skip (again. im lazy)
'Taeil? Taeil! You're spacing out again.' , I heard Johnny saying. I just looked at him and nodded once. 'Let's go.' , Doyoung said and stood up. Then, we left. 'What were you thinking about?' , he asked. I shrugged and looked down.

I want to talk to you. But I am not ready. And I don't think I'll ever be before my death.