Winchester Sister Imagines (Editing in Progress)

Trapped

(A/N: Now I know the timeline is a little wibbly wobbly but just go with it events are not in order but I kinda like it better like that. Also there are a lot of pieces from the Winchester sister narrating this story that is what is in the brackets so if you see them that's what's going on. Anyways it's late and I'm tired but I hope you all enjoy this crazy chapter)

This is the story of my death. Oh no no no.... don't feel bad for me. I did it for my brothers, plus I'm happier this way..... or at least I thought I would be. You see I was the youngest in my family and my father never really made life a... simple task for me. I was his bastard child born of one of the many whores (pardon my French.... ehem ladies of the night) my father slept with. So when I was dropped on my father's revenge seeking doorstep. Needless to say it was a VERY unwanted surprise. So from the day I was old enough to understand I was put in my place. I learned real fast that although none of us had a great life under the revolving motel roof my father provided. My brothers were most definitely put on a pedestal compared to me. I was the gum stuck to the bottom of my father's shoe. I followed him everywhere on all the hunts seeking his approval. Yet never finding it my father wishing he could scrape me off just like that metaphorical gum I was talking about earlier. Come the age of 15 I soon learned I was barking up the wrong tree. Though I would never get approval from John. I soon came to the conclusion that my brothers would maybe be able to help me learn a thing or two. Alas I was wrong but their dead, not dead, maybe dead melodrama left them not too much time to help me out. Then John died for real and I decided it was time for me to stop relying on the men around me to teach me and it was time for me to take matters into my own hands I followed my brothers around on hunts observed and took notes after. Occasionally I would slice the head off a monster when needed getting some hands on practice. My brothers didn't really want me to but I didn't care! I was so sick of feeling trapped! Feeling helpless, I was helpless against John and his daily abuse! I was helpless against monsters and demons that killed my brothers time and time again! I won't be helpless anymore! I'm stronger then I thought I was, and I'm ready to fulfill that! So I studied my notes, studied lore, and became a mastermind at the art of hunting. I was the age of 21 when I finally felt free to live! Though my brothers always showed love for each other their love for me was lacking. I knew it and our friend angel Castiel knew it. Through the years Cas and I became very close. (Ehem to be specific we were lovers at one point in time....) He understood me in ways that I didn't even understand myself. He made me feel wanted for the first time in my whole life I didn't feel.... trapped and alone. He understood my pain because he himself felt at a point in time trapped and alone. Constantly seeking approval from his fellow angels and from his father, Chuck. (Some father he was geeze, and I thought mine was bad!) So to sum us up our relationship appeared very naturally, and it was kind of expected almost. When we told my brothers they weren't shocked in fact Sam saw it coming. There were days when I felt like maybe my brothers had finally decided to accept me and then there were days they blatantly ignored me. But all of that was fine now cause through it all I had Cas I was ok... right? Wrong.... when I was just 25 years old. My angel died in my arms. I gave him a hunters funeral... I was back to being alone. Still able to live but feeling dead inside. Soon thereafter my brothers invited me to go on a hunt. I agreed cause if I was being honest I had a death wish. I was ready to go. I felt like I had nothing more to live for, and this empty world would be no different without me. I was careless and sloppy on that hunt. I almost got myself and my brothers killed. I have (had) the scars to prove it. I got yelled at by both Sam and Dean all the way back to the bunker tuning them out the whole way. When we walked back to the bunker I went in my room and locked the door. Weeks later a new hunt came up. I felt stronger now still not at all better but.... stronger. So I went out to tell my brothers I was ready now! They filled me in on what Rowena told them, and we headed off to learn about some new witch coven and their dangerous new out of control spells. We made it to Rowena's and as we got out of the car Dean walked to the door while Sam stopped me to talk:
"Listen kiddo, I know we've never really been close. I'm sorry about that by the way. But I'm especially sorry I haven't been there for you while you've been grieving Cas. I think it's partly that I've let my own grieving get in the way of it. I'm really sorry, so if you need anything and I mean anything just let me know!"
I replied:
"Thanks Sam means a lot... (hugs my big bro lol... are you loving my interjections at the weirdest times yet? Cause I'm loving putting them in here hahaha anyway let's continue) Lets go find out what Dean and Rowena are up to shall we?"
We walked into the house only to find that the coven got the jump on Rowena, and made her call us here.  Suddenly they had thrown us against walls and were trying to kill us by taking the air from our lungs like... demons! Oh I see they are a demon witch hybrid! Incorporating their demon powers in high level magic spells to make them stronger! Suddenly one of the witch demons created a portal in Rowena's living room attempting to send her to hell. I however fought against their powers using a counter spell I learned when reading through lore a couple of years ago. It was only working partially because I only learned a spell on how to combat witch control. I also learned that if a human passes through a portal to hell it will close and not be able to be reopened by a witch if the human repeats the incantation: "Veneficas et daemones sive monuit me hoc inclusi iam in inferis portal"
So I used a spell Rowena taught me and bound the witches together. I honestly don't know how I did it, but I think I was empowered with the adrenaline and the will power to accomplish this fearful task. I looked to my brothers with a look that I know they felt meant goodbye. And I grabbed the witches and pushing them through the portal I screamed:
"Veneficas et daemones sive monuit me hoc inclusi iam in inferis portal!"
Sam yelled:
"(Y/N)! NO!"
With tears streaming down my face I fell into hell. Preparing my soul for the endless torture I would go through. Little did I know on the other side of the now closed portal my brothers grieved for me. They actually wished they would've spent more time with me instead of looking at me as an outcast all those years.  I also grieved them cause in hell ya have TONS of time to think about your miserable life on earth. I thought a lot of my brothers wished that if I could either go back to earth or even just make it to heaven. I could relive all those moments and make more of an effort with them!

*Darkness and Tourture*

Many years later Earth time:

Castiel came back from the Empty and the instant he found out I was rotting away in eternal prison I was told that he came down to hell and placed me in heaven. When I woke up after feeling like I'd been beat over the head. I saw a beautiful shining figure and was in awe! I was gazing upon the love of my life's true form! I knew it was him instantly and he for a moment went back into the form I was accustomed to seeing. Although as he was in his "human form" I could still see his angelic essence surrounding him. I began:
"Castiel but... how?"
He placed a finger over my lips silencing me while saying:
"Shhh my love no need for questions. You are safe now!"
He kissed me for quite some time and oh my chuck! I had no idea how much I missed this! Then he said:
"I must go soon, but first I'll let you know everything that happened in our absence."
He told me of what I did for my brothers, and the world. Then that I was in hell but he saved me. Though not enough was left of my soul or my body to bring me back to earth so instead he took me to heaven. Where I could heal and enjoy the rest of my eternity in my own personal heaven. He also told me of how my brothers recklessly grieved me to the point of them almost dying themselves. (He didn't get into details with me. Though I assume that they almost died hunting things as we all do when we are grieving evidently) he also explained that they are better now not great but better. They have planted a tree for me outside of the bunker to remember who I was and my sacrifice. Cas then had to leave me, but assured he would tell my brothers that I was now safe from eternal suffering, and that he would be back to visit me as often as Naomi would let him into heaven. As for me I got to reconcile my differences with the heaven created duplicates of my brothers and live the rest of eternity blissfully getting updates from Cas about my brothers whenever he was able to visit and spending time with the angel that I loved. I finally got my apple pie life and without the fear of it all being ripped away from me.

THE END!