Simula
I hug myself as the cold wind of December hit my skin. I drink my hot chocolate I made just a few minutes ago. The hotness of the drink was now long gone and is affected with the wind brought by the joyous month.
Two years... Its been two years. How I struggled para maabot lamang kung naasan ako ngayon. What I did just to be where I am right now. I'm just 17 years old back then. Too young for those things.
Umingay ang aking MacBook. Nilapitan ko iyo at tiningnan kung sino ang tumatawag. Its ate Julia. Sinagot ko iyon.
"Kal..." my sister voice lingered. It sound so sweet and melancholic. Her voice soothes my wants to see them, feel them.
"Ate!" I beamed. I saw my other siblings and cousins in the background. Ang gugulo! Kuya Klaus there is pushing away others just to fit himself in the screen. Kumaway ako. Sinaway naman sila ni ate.
"Guys! Behave!" Tumawa ako. Oh, how I miss them! I can even hear some says pasalubong daw, or may bago daw ba kong boyfriend. Lumakas ang tawa ko.
"Hey! Its not like I'm here for a vacation!" Realization dawned on them making them shut up.
"Kal... are you okay there?" Ate Elizabeth voice filled the speaker. Of all of us cousins, ate Elizabeth is the oldest, that's why when she speaks, all of us shut up. Another reason is, we idolize her. Matanda sya at marami nang narating sa buhay.
"Ate naman... yes, I'm fine here. As long as he doesn't know I'm here, okay naman, 'di ba?"
Maya maya pa ay umingay ulit at kung saan saan napupunta ang pinag uusapan. Hanggang humikap na ako. Kanina pa kami nag uusap. It's midnight here, while it's morning there!
Nahalata siguro ni ate Julie na inaantok na ako kaya pinag sabihan nya ang mga pinsan ko na matutulog na ako. "Goodnight, Kal." Tumango ako at nag ba-bye isa isa sa mga pinsan ko.
When they finally ended the call, I went on with my night routine even its already 3 A.M. here!
I brush my teeth and took a bath. I grab my pair of sweat shirt and sweat pants. I didn't bother to get any underwear, dahil matutulog rin lamang ako. I want mine to be able to breath sometimes.
I took one last glance at the clock before I call this day a day. It reads 4:07 in the morning. I turn the lights off and my lamp on before I jump on my bed and close my eyes.
I was awakened by hot breath on my neck. Nakababa na rin ang kumot ko sa bewang. And a large hand is gripping on my left boob! Napabalikwas ako.
"What the fuck?" Sabi ko ng mapagtanto kong hindi ako nag iisa sa kama. Someone entered my pad last night without me knowing!
Nanlaki ang mata ko kung sino. A pair of gray eyes greeted me. He then smirk.
"Good morning, love." Itutulak ko sana sya para tumakbo nang bigla nyang hinula ang aking mga kamay and pin my hands above head.
"You've been a very bad girl these past few years, baby." Sininghot nya ang aking buhok at kinagat ang aking ibabang labi. "And santa doesn't give gifts to naught ones."
I can feel myself tremble by just seeing him. What is he doing here? Nasayang ba ang isang taon kong pagtatago? Akala ko ba hindi nya ako mahahanap?
His other hand move down towards my core. He smirk and directly palmed my core.
"Ahhh... no panties, baby?" He pushed one finger inside. "Just like I thought you."
He moves his finger inside and out. He sometimes do a circular motion with his finger when pushing it inside. Napapaungol ako.
"You know what does Santa do to bad girls?" He pushed his finger out of me and brought it to his lips. Nanlaki ang mata ko ng bigla nya itong sinubo.
"He punished them," at bigla na lamang pinosasan ang aking kamay sa headboard ng aking kama at pagkatapos ay pinunit ang aking mga damit!
