Lil' Short Stories

"That's High School for You"

Huh...

You're right. I do want to go home and cry. And then fall asleep from all the crying. But who's to say that that's not a happy lifestyle or an unhealthy system or that I should see someone about that.

I go to school with tired eyes and I fake smile. I "laugh" and mess around with my friends. I study a lot and focus into my work, sometimes. Other times, I think to myself; I just want to curl up into a corner of the room with a blanket wrapped around me and a book to keep me company and then eventually drift off into sleep.

But no. I can't do that. Because it's a society's order for you to have a good work ethic and scholarly grades to make it to a great college (of everyone's dreams) and have a teenager choose what to do with themselves for the rest of your lives, but still make sure that their still happy in what they want to do.

Too much pressure. Too much.

On top of that, you have to keep up with the trends, have a picture perfect body, a social media feed that appeals to everyone's eyes, and always make sure to drink eight glasses of water. The list keeps adding up after that.

The pressure of: society's rules, teenage trends, your health, and happiness. All has to come immediately. Or else someone's going to start worrying about you.

I hate having someone worry about me. It's reassuring, sure. But I don't like the uncomfortable "center of attention" feeling.

Feelings. They're out of control. It's always different with a different experience: happy, sad, depressed, jubilant, livid, fuming, exasperated, relaxed, cold. The feeling of being alone: cold. Another thing society wants out of you: are you dateable? or are you confused about yourself?

Being a "one-(wo)man show": exhausting. You have to provide your own happiness, comfort yourself, fulfill your own "mr. and mrs. goals."

The pressures and trends and self-reliant being I am, is more powerful than anything.

But yes. I do still want to go home and cry myself to sleep. Because it's all bottled up behind the strong yet short girl facade taking in the "perfect" high school experience.

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hey hey it's jules!! i wrote this a little while ago. i think i needed an outlet for all the societal demands that can become a toll on some people, especially me. i'm usually not one to complain, but i guess i was tired from everything. i hope you liked this, maybe found it relatable, and i hope everyone has a good day!!