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will you?

for the first time i saw you on the freshman day
you are beautiful and cool
your smile,it just took my half life away
for the first time i had a crush and that is you
many people around me calling you hot,beautiful,sexy and some wanted you in their bed
but,i really didn't think of you that way
i thought you are friendly, intelligent and just perfect
i just want to be on your side,watching you,making you smile,being a friend of yours
but i didn't even get a chance to approach you
because you are always surrounded by famous people 

soon you became my fantasy

but,it's okay

i'm fine watching you from far
i'm happy to hear people complimenting you
i'm glad that you are not alone like me

all things were going smoothly  

until all these situations turned down after an unacknowledged mistake

why did this have to happen?
why did you go to that stupid party?
why did you caught off guard?
 why did you pass out in that scum's hands?

i don't have any right on you,but

i'm sorry,i'm not there for you when you're helpless

i'm sorry to not able to cut the rumors and gossips running around about you

same people who praised you are calling you slut,bitch

i know how you feel,by watching you everyday 

you look awful and depressed 
at that sight i want to hold you tight and never let you go
but what am i to you
i'm nothing with no thing
how can i protect you
this guilt is eating me alive
watching you like this is the biggest failure in my life

i can't stand it any more

i want to be with you at this time,
i want to lend you my shoulders to lean on
i want to remove all scars on you
i want to bring back your real smile again

please give me a chance,i will never let you feel like this anymore....WILL YOU?

♡.✿◠‿◠✿.♡