Painful Minds //Chase Hudson

part 1

Hi I'm Alex, short for Alexandra. I find it hard to interact with people, I also have misophonia and i have anxiety which makes my life worse. But for some reason, I'm actually one of the 'popular' kids. I find it hard to interact with new people and I'm very sensitive. My big sister is Loren. She always has my backe. I get sad and scared. Teachers know everything about me. Even that I can't interact with new people. Also they can tell when I'm on the edge to have a panic attack. Some people think I'm weird and most people think I'm nice, caring, funny, shy and a cool person. I'm not like anyone on this world I'm different. Everyone that's my friends (mostly everyone) calls me Lexi.

I'm 15. I'm really nice and caring. I have heaps of friends. Mishka and Eva are my besties, well Loren is to but she's different. Joey is Lorens boyf. He's so protective over me. Because I'm like a little sister to him. I'm one of those office helper things. Like if the school office needs help with somthing. My favorite person to look after Is a little girl named Alisha. She has down syndrome and they get me to look after her. Tbh I think it's easier to interact with little kids than teenagers. im single, obvi. I don't trust anyone tbh. The last person I trusted turned on me and cheated.
*cough* bitch*cough*. I have many friends. But, no crush sadly, every cute boy is either taken or thinks I'm weird. tommorow is the first day of school in the term. Mondayyssssss areeeeeeee theeeee woorrssttttttttt, iii swweeeaaaarrrrrrr!!!!!!

Monday morning

Alex's pov
I woke up feeling ready for today. I get up out of bed and go take a shower. It's 6 am and I'm having a shower. Weird. I'm one of those early bird people. I love getting up early. Weird, Ik. I hop out of the shower thinking

I should wear somthing good today, for the first day of school. But what will people think of me. They will think I'm a slut or somthing. Okay I'm over thinking. Way to much. I'm breathing to fast. Calm down. Calm down. Calm down. Okay, c a l m d o w n. Somthing to wear? Somthing to wear.

I always over think. And then I start breathing heavily. I think about what people think of me to much. I get changed into this

This is good enough, right? But it's not over the top to I'm good. Eww you can see a bit of my bra. That's gross. I'll just try to cover that up.

I walked downstairs and no one was awake. Loren was at joeys house. And mom was out of town for a few months. Dad? He left when I was born. And Zaviah (boy) is probably asleep. Should I go wake him up? He should get ready for school.

I walk upstairs and into his room. "Zaviah.wake up. It's time to get ready for school."I whisper shaking him.

"Hmm." He moans. "I'm a big boy,I can wake up on my own." He says kissing my for head.