Her Sickness Is Her Home

You Are Skin And Bones

AN: So this idea has been going around in my head for a while and I thought I would finally get it down!

Trigger warning for eating disorders, and child abuse.

I am sorry if this is OOC, it's one of my first fics and I'm still getting a feel for writing. Regina will be OOC but that is because eating disorders change characteristics, and when it is found out that also changes a person, so warning Regina will be OOC in this.

The song is Skin & Bones by Picture Me Broken.

Disclaimer, I do not own these characters or the show of Once Upon a Time or the song.

I don't have a beta so all mistakes are mine.

Bold means a flashback or dream sequence, and Bold Italics are the lyrics, and Italics are thoughts.

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Hey dear, I fear

I'll watch you disappearI know you'll goUntil you're Skin and Bones

Your reflection's all you're worth

This time it's almost over

I watch you turn to dustI know it's not much longerUntil you faint

Regina sits on the silk sheets that she and Emma have been using more, however her reason for sitting is less lovely than that of Emma Swan. She wrestles with her body – it tells her she needs the food and the voice of her mind and mother saying no.

"Stupid petulant child! How many times must I tell you! You do not get desert you must look good for a man one day! Skinny for him to love!"

Regina places the fork down with a nod and looks to her mother,

"I know mother, I must have this size of waist and these dresses and..."

with an exasperated sigh Regina faces her mother

"When will it end mother?"

Cora raises her hand as Regina feels the burn to her face without the mark from a hand print.
That was the end of that conversation.

'I must not eat! I can't, no Regina, Emma won't love you anymore. I need this. Control this!'
Regina mutters to herself as she tries to calm the dizziness in her head when she smells it, those wonderful blueberry pancakes Emma makes, and she stands as Emma walks in but immediately has to sit. The blonde rushes over to her yelling down to Henry to keep an eye on the food.

"'Gi, you okay?"

Emma asks softly. They mayor mask is put in place as Regina nods.

"Yes, dear I am fine. I believe I smell pancakes and coffee?"

Emma smiles and grabs the dark eyed woman's hand.

"Yup, there is!"

Henry looks up at his mothers greeting his adoptive parent as they all sit at the table for breakfast.

"Hey mom! Ma makes awesome pancakes!"

Henry says shovelling more food into his 14-year-old mouth.

Regina looks at the pancakes and smiles going to grab her fork
'Regina, don't do it! You can control yourself!'
She slowly lowers the fork, but her body overpowers her, and she lifts the utensil to cut the pancake and places it in her mouth a moan escaping but she covers it up. Grasping for another piece and within a few minutes she looks to her son and girlfriend who are gaping at her.