JUST ONE NIGHT - VSOO - ✔

39: Jamais Vu

"the exact opposite of Deja Vu; being in a situation you've already been yet there's this unfamiliarity like you've never been there."

¡ Back in the present!

KIM TAEHYUNG;

"Days go by without her and I don't know what to do. It's like those 6 months we're already my whole life."

Jennie chuckled in Taehyung's suprise. He never thought he'd be telling all of this to his ex. Especially to the one he clearly remembers he didn't have proper closure with.

"How about you actually try? I mean, if you ask me it doesnt really seem you want to."

Taehyung opened his mouth to reason but he could only seal it back shut with a smile.

"I know, Jen. But, how could I?" He said with a bitter scattered smile.

He didn't know what to think, Jisoo could come back and he knows he'll be ready anytime to have her back but if he's going to keep living through days with that in thought then all he's ever going to do was sulk.

Everyday missing her, worrying about her-- just thinking about her brings him down... and the only thing that could lift him up was also her and at the end of the day he's always left with just himself. Alone.

"Jisoo... she probably left to get some things off her chest--"

"Jennie, everything that has happened-- it's an us whose involved. In every situation, I'm there, she's there. If she wanted to get away, couldn't she just atleast have said something? Or maybe... couldn't she just not? Because in getting through all of those situations, there's a we that could've went through all of that."

Jennie heaved out a sigh making Taehyung shut up. He realized he was becoming impossible to reason with and hard to talk with.

"Listen. You hear yourself right now, right? 1 plus 1 makes a 2. I don't know what Jisoo feels but maybe she doesnt feel a one right now to make that two."

Taehyung's face lightened up a little after hearing Jennie's short metaphor.

"Taehyung. You're not exactly just sad, you also sound mad--"

"Well, of course, Jen. To be left without any warnings or notes that I'll be back or that I'll be okay!" He paused and closed his eyes in frustration. Taehyung just really didn't know what he was thinking, feeling nor saying.

"I... I wanted to keep going... but now I feel like a total fool because I think I'm the only one in this relationship that even wants that. If there's still even... but I really don't know anymore."

"You love her?"

Taehyung looked at Jennie questionably before answering.

"Yeah, of course."

"Then you should know how everything's so hard for her too."

He nodded, still cofused where the conversation was going.

"Okay now keep that in mind. So it was a fault she didn't even tell you but do you think you would even let her? Just hearing from you now, I could already tell. I'm not saying she's suffocated. She's just had too much, all at once. As what I said, maybe she wasn't feeling like the one that makes the two that you so much keep pushing is the answer to the big equation. Now if there isn't a two, then what's left of you?"

Taehyung was about to talk when Jennie spoke up again.

"Now, if you guys actually pushed through together with Jisoo actually feeling that way... what did you think might've happened."

Jennie smiled at him gummily before standing up.

"You got this, Taehyung-ah." She lastly said before leaving.

"Hey, Jen."

She turned around and raised her brow.

"Let's get lunch sometime and talk."

"Sounds like a plan."

He smiled before turning to Jimin who was working on a plastic design of a building.

"Hope the oh so a-list invitation only hasn't expired yet?"

Jimin turns to him with a wide smile on his face.

"I think I gotta make some arranges first."

"I'll buy the snacks! You two suck at choosing snacks and I don't even know how that's possible." Jungkook exclaimed as he was still focused on his design.

woah.

an update on this book twice in a row??? somebody hold me back ohmygod i must be a whole different person.

anyways, please love yourself before loving anybody else or your spouses. its only gon work out if that's going to be ur first priority like legit ;-;

every couple at my class literally sobs bc they dont know how to get up from a relationship.

just a tip: plsplspls love yourself first before going into a relationship that you think is for reals or just any relationship at tgis point of our generation, or either learn to do so while in the relationship bc sometimes relationships will take you to your highest point, too high that you'll likely lose yourself in the process and when it brings you down, you'll be stuck with someone you dont know, someone scared to do it all again... you get the poiny. this isnt actually an author's note just a tip from a girl on the internet that has seen too much heartbreaks and doesnt want to anymore.

or be an asshole and dont take it too serious to avoid heartbreaks. just the right measurement of assholery and you'll avoid a heartbreak. im kidding...or am i.

aNYWAYS I WAS SUPPOSE TO HAVE A DOUBLE UPDATE ON THIS BOOK ON BTS' COMEBACK BUT I LITERALLY HAD MY PHONE TAKEN AWAY SO I HAD TO WATCH IT ON OUR TV (hehe) IM ACTUALLY STILL NOT USING MY PHONE, UGH THE HORROR

-moon