I started to get a little nervous, ok a lot nervous, I get really anxious when I am at the doctors office mostly because of my anxiety I had ever since I was a kid. It's lately been getting worse mostly I think it's because of my emotional trauma as a kid. Ever since my anxiety has been getting worse I started to realized I've been stuttering a lot.
The doctor walked in the door with papers and such. He sat down a looked at me briskfully. He sighed and said "I'm afraid to tell you this sir but, you have diffluent speech which is also known as stuttering. Do you know why you might have this condition?" I sighed "I m-might know why." After I said that he looked intrigued "why do you think so?" I looked at him dead in the eye, but my anxiety made me look away quickly. "When I was seven my m-mom abandoned me in a g-game of hide and s-seek, and since I never k-knew my dad I was left as an o-orphan for ten y-years, then I had to f-figure out what to do w-with my life all by m-myself", the doctor looked at me in shock, but then he looked down and nodded "I see, well now I know why you have diffluent speech, it's from emotional trauma, if it gets any worse just come back and we'll try to treat it but if it stays the same or gets better I think you'll be fine for a while", even if it did get worse I don't think I'll be coming back, mostly because I don't want to be reminded of what happened to me. I remember I spent almost an hour looking for my mom and the fair we went to was a long ways away from my house, and I was too young to remember where it was. I also remember that I was crying and this woman came up to me and conforted me, I think she was the one that took me to the orphanage
~flashback~
"Hello young one, whats your name?" "Jung H-Hoseok", she smiled " Where is your mom Hoseok?", "I don't know", " Are you lost?", "i-i guess so" She gave me a warm hug and picked me up and brought me to the orphanage she helped at.
I remember that I did not fit in with anyone, I was always the awkward, silent kid, I was always teased and picked on, I guess that's what gave me anxiety. When I was going back home I felt a little nauseous, maybe since I new the fact that I had two disorders made me feel uneasy. When I got home I immediately layed down only to get a text my my best friend, Yoongi.
YG - "How did the appointment go, did your anxiety get better?"
I was so delighted to see I got text from him
JH - "I mean it went ok you could say :/"
I was surprised to see he texted back in not even a minute later, god I love that I have a friend like yoongi.
YG - "Are you ok? What happened! I know some things wrong. Jung Hoseok reply this instant!1!1!1!!!"
I kinda smiled at how protective and goofy he was acting
JH - "No really I am fine I just... I have... Diffluent speech"
He didn't reply instantly which made me worry a little but he did reply quick
YG - "what is that??"
JH - "It's basically just stuttering"
YG -"Ooooh, when will you get better :)"
JH - "I don't think I will yoon"
He left me on read which triggered my anxiety, but luckily he replied in time... Again
YG - "Wait what why??"
JH - "It's kinda a long story to type right here rn and I'm tired"
YG - "it's coo, maybe we can talk about it at the coffee shop we used to go to all the time :)"
JH - "yeah sure tomorrow?"
YG - "well, duh"
JH - "what time"
YG - "Maybe around 11 am :^"
JH - "sure I'll see you by then bye yoon"
YH - "Bye Hoseok :)"
The next day he came to my house and he drove us to a coffee shop that we used to go to all the time with our other friend, when we got there I told Yoongi what I wanted, I didn't want to order because of my anxiety. When Yoongi ordered our drinks and donuts I told him everything that the doctor told me, with my stuttering problem and what I told him what happened when I was younger. Yoongi seemed surprised but he also looked tired.
When our order was ready I decided I wanted to go up to get it, when I went up to the counter to get it the guy handing it to me didn't take his hand off it yet so I accidentally touched his hand I got really red and I just took the donut, but when I looked at his face he smiled and said sorry, I just swallowed and looked up at his face getting even more red because he looked cute. "Hello, I'm Kim Seokjin, what about you", for some reason I didn't feel my anxiety even though I knew it was there, I just couldn't feel it, I bluntly replied
"I-im Jung H-Hoseok"
A/n
Ssksksks I'm sorry if this was short/crappy this is my first time really writing a story like this, so I decided to do it of my favorite ship :) Jinhope!
Ps I hope you like it or you think it turned out good I actually would like to continue this story :D
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A Stutter Away From Your Heart ~Jinhope
Romanceit's been a couple years since J-hope has been diagnosed with Diffluent Speech aka stuttering, this also has caused him to worsen his anxiety, one day when he went to go get a coffee who would've thought just a hello would "cure" him.
