Stress
Anxiety
Fear
Thats what I feel
I feel as if im going to fail
As if ive already failed
Im out of ideas
Im lost
I dont know anymore
My life just seems pointless
Like im only here to suffer
Why do i have to suffer
Why do I have to feel guilty
Why do I have to feel like a failure
Why am i being yelled at
Why do I have to fail
Why cant i ever win
What is the point
I dont know anymore
Im afraid
Afraid of everyone
Everything
But most of all
Myself
im my worst enemy
and I dont know how to change that
I want to but i cant
Why cant i just be ok
Be normal
Im tired
Tired of living
But I dont want to die either
I dont know exactly what i want
I guess just to not have been here in the first place
I wouldnt have to choose
I dont want to chose
What if I chose wrong
What if I do something I cant take back
I crave it
I crave the feeling
I want to
But im afraid
Afraid of what will happen
The blood
The tears
Everything
why
Why me
Why does everything i do get me nowhere
im numb
Im dont even feel alive to begin with
Everything has become a way of death
I dont know what to do
im lost
Afraid
Alone
