Don't listen
Don't let them control you
Its what your always told
If only I could
I don't want to listen
But that only makes it harder
I just want to be normal
Why am I ashamed
Why cant I be normal
Why am I the one suffering
Why don't you understand
I hate it
I hate the way I think about myself, but I cant help it
I hate the way I feel about myself, but I cant help it
I hate the way I look at myself, but I cant help it
They act as if its so simple
Just be happy
Just eat
Just stop worrying
There's nothing to lose
But there's everything to lose
I'm not good enough
And I never will be
Say what you want
The world goes on
The world moves on
But I don't
I cant
So I sit here
Waiting
Waiting to feel enough strength to get back up
And walk forward
But deep down
I know I cant sit here
Sit here waiting for the strength
I need to find it
But what if there's none left to find
Its to late
I'll never find my strength
I never had the strength to begin with
The world moves on
And i'm stuck here
Watching
Wanting free
But knowing
Freedom
Is
Not
Coming.
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A/N
I don't know what came over me I felt like writing something and this hapend. I like the video because, I honestly dont know I just like it. I just started watching Red Band Society but probably wont be finished for a while.
You all are amazing and deserve the best.
I have my first therapist appointment next week so lets see how that goes. I also ate pizza earlier and really want to purge now but I've tried to before and physically could not get myself to
Anyways, Stay strong💖
~Avy
