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Deserve

I Hate You- Hotshot

Son Dahee

I was really out of thoughts. Like I want it but I don't. He kinda makes me want to cry out loud.

After the dinner we got some free chatting time since it's not so easy for all of us to meet and have dinner together. Jina hold my hand. "What's wrong? " I asked her. "I'm the one who should be asking that" she said before we sit. "You seems off? " she said in a question tone. "She's gonna get married in one month. What do you expect? " Ren asked Jina. Jina just shrugged her shoulder. "She's not even a legal adult yet. How should she know? "Hwa Yeong flick her finger on Ren's head. She rubbed the place because it hurts. "Yaa but it's like public knowledge thoo" she said.

"There's a part of me that agrees with this but some of them are just don't" I said while drawing circles with my finger on the cushion. "You know... It's kind of a bad idea to date my brother" Yeongie said. Everyone anticipated to hear what she's gonna say. "He have so many girls around his hips all day long and Dahee doesn't even have her first kiss yet while my brother already kissed alot of girls" she said. The other two looked at me with pity and concerned face.

"It's fine... He might fall for me after the marriage" I said. "You are too nice" Ren said. I just giggled. The my thoughts flew away. It's flying in my mind. It's kinda unfair for me. He already kissed alot of women, ladies and girls... Wait he is not a pedo! (In real life he is not a pedo! I'm not talking dirty or anything!) I don't even have a first kiss yet. I already became a legal adult last year but I still didn't get my first kiss yet. Even the maknae, Jina got her first when she was 15. Should I ask someone random for a kiss???

No... Don't get me wrong. I was just thinking. Like what will people think of a princess or even anyone came and ask a guy to kiss her. I have been keeping my first kiss for my fated husband but this turn out kind of harsh. "Maybe he will kiss me one day" I said. The girls look at me with variety of expression. Jina looked at me with a happy face. Maybe she thinks I should keep thinking positively. Ren looked at me with a blank face and Yeongie look kind of curious.

"What's with the face thoo? " Ren pushed Yeongie. "I'm just curious if my brother will ever look at her with feelings. He is a playboy and none of his girlfriend get a piece of love from him" she said. I suddenly feel hopeless. Hwan Woong looked at our direction.

Suddenly he roughly pulled me by my wrist. He took me to the garden outside. When we stopped in the middle of the darkness he yank my hand away. "You really want to be with me aren't you!?! " he pulled my face closer by pinching my cheeks with one hand. "I don't! " my words were muffled. "Hah! Liar! " he yell at me. "A lot of girls want me. They want to get under my skin, into my bed and you are no different than them" he let go of my cheek and walk one step by one step towards me until my back hit a wall and he pinned me there.

Tears start filling into my eyes. How can he be so cruel. His thoughts towards women are so cruel. "What you're acting sad now?" His face came closer to me. "Don't even think I will fall into your trap again. It's enough for you to force me to marry you" he whispered to my ear and his hot breath can be felt. He walk towards the fountain and took a plastic flower pot and filled it with water before splashing it to me." If you are really desperate for a kiss then ask a guy to kiss you. You are shameless to think I might kiss you. I won't even go close to love you" After he left, I fell on my knees and cried.

I flew to the balcony of my study and sit on the edge. I cried my eyeballs out. Do I really deserve that? Do I really deserve that because I think that he maybe will love me one day. I'm not that desperate for a kiss. But feelings matters in marriage. I have always thought that having my first kiss with my fated husband will be such a sweet memory. I thought it will be filled with pure love and warmth but I don't even married to him yet but the pain is so real.

A/N:

Sorry for my slow updating sistem. I'll try my best to be faster next time! Plus....

I've added more song into the list! You guys can check it in my concept chapter! Thanks for the support!