The Bittersweet Love

Hold My Hand

Taeyeon's hand is still gripping Jessica's both hands.

'Her eyes were closed as I kiss her again, plunging my tongue deep inside her mouth, and her tongue is still the same taste as it is,
sweet.' Taeyeon thought to herself.

The curves of Jessica's body is always making her melt.

The need to take Jessica is hard to resist.

The further she go on, the least of losing control for herself.

Taeyeon's mind can't even think, it's like her body has the brain to control her.

Minutes had past and she never felt Jessica resisting in her action.

She was busy kissing Jessica when she pulled back because she felt something wet around Jessica's cheek. And when Taeyeon lifted her head, she saw how Jessica managed to close her eyes but
failed because her tears keep falling freely to her cheeks and it broke
Taeyeon's heart, seeing what she just did to her.

Like a thunder, its strike Taeyeon, directed to her heart. 'What have I
done?'

Tears began to blur Taeyeon's vision too. Seeing Jessica with tears escaping from her eyes, it hurts like hell, and the most painful is that she's the one who cause that tears from her eyes.

'I -I hurt her.'

'Am I too much?'

She panicked so Taeyeon let go of Jessica's wrist and retrieved her hand between Jessica's legs. Taeyeon pulled back a little and look at Jessica, she carefully cupped Jessica's both cheek to face her and Taeyeon's heart broke again, it is so much hurt to see how Jessica's look so vulnerable in this state.

"So -Sooyeon....." Taeyeon first contemplated if she will call Jessica in that name.

But in the end the wall she had built for the past year was crumbled Just like that, how can she ever resist her.

"So -Sooyeon..." Taeyeon finally called Jessica's Korean name lovingly for the first time. Like she always used to call her every day, but after what happened to them Taeyeon stop calling her on that name.

"I -I.." Jessica heard what Taeyeon called her and she was shock. She was just staring at Taeyeon's eyes in disbelief, not knowing what to say in this situation.

So Taeyeon lifted her hand and grazed her thumbs over the bottom of Jessica's eyes and wiped her tears. Taeyeon leaned forward and gently kissed Jessica's forehead. "I'm sorry Sooyeon." It's all Taeyeon had got to say, she really don't know either what to say.

"I'm sorry." Taeyeon softly said again, as her lips is still lingering in Jessica's forehead.

"l'm sorry, for what I did" Taeyeon repeat herself and pulled back to
look at Jessica, she tucked some of Jessica's loose fringe behind
her ears as Taeyeon lovingly looking at her.

Jessica felt intimidated and looked away.

Taeyeon really regret what she did.

"I don't know what got into me, to do that, but seeing you crying earlier, hurts me."

"It's okay T -Taengoo, I- I deserve that." Jessica finally said between her sob but still didn't dare to look at Taeyeon eyes again.

"It is all my fault anyway." Jessica continued.

"No, I'm just stupid for doing that to you." 'She doesn't deserve any of this, I'm so sorry Sooyeon.'

"Please Sooyeon look at me."