Only 6...

Chapter 3 : Bail or Stay

I did it .. I shot and killed my daddy...
I don't know what happened, I don't know how fast it happened either ..

When I ran into the room to help my mom and brother, I grabbed my dads hand with the gun in it, just trying to take it away from him, and when the gun went off, it was aimed towards him... his chest. I couldn't even live with myself at that point, I wanted to end my own life, and that's why I grabbed the gun. I guess I wasn't fast enough, but it was an accident, I was only trying to save my mommy and baby brother.. I didn't know I would kill him..

As I'm being put into the cops car, my mom looks at me in shame, and disappointment, as if I killed her husband, WHO TRIED TO KILL HER AND HER SON, on purpose. I loved my dad, I would never do that to him on purpose, he meant everything to me. My head is down, I'm hurting, grieving, anything that has something to do with pain is what was going through my head right now. Literally, a 6 year old going to jail for the murder of her own father 😪. I had my whole life ahead of me and now it's snatched away from me all for self.. or family defense.

All I could think about is why was he trying to kill us.. or my mom and baby brother? Was he trying to take me or something? Things weren't making any sense to me at all. Just a few months after Nick was born I started to see how weird my dad started acting, but I'm still a child so I didn't think anything of it. Maybe it was the stress of having another kid, but to kill us? Nothing was adding up.

As we pulled up to the jail, my heart dropped into my feet. I felt my face just flush, like someone just tried to take my life.... to soon? Maybe. The officer opens the door for me, and helps me out, and I fell into tears, crying for my mommy. The officer holds me, and she whispers to me, "My name is Officer Castaway, it's okay I have you, I'll make sure they don't anything to harm or confuse you. Now what is your name and how old are you?" I told her my name was Symone Castaway, and I was 6 years old. Her eyes filled with tears, and she just grabbed me tight, and looked me in my eyes for a good two minutes. I didn't know why she would be crying if she never met me a day in my life. I never seen her before, I don't know this women... maybe she felt bad for me.

Again she looked at me in the eyes, and says "Hey babygirl... mommy misses you" ...