If Tomorrow Was Today | Short Story

5.

It was hard to see but I know what I saw. It was him. His face immediately disappeared into the crowd and I felt like I was going to never see him again. I wanted to call out his name and magically summon him next to me but that was not how life worked.

I had to go after him or else I was never going to see him again.

"I-I'm sorry but I have to go. There's something I have to do."

"Oh, uh, okay. See ya around, I guess!"

Julian, Julian, Julian where are you? I thought as I made my way through the crowd. I was starting to get anxious. My heart was pounding in my throat and my body was pouring with sweat. I was already rehearsing the lines in my head for when we reunited, for when we met again because we were meeting again.

I had to also prepare myself for probably only getting about five minutes or less to speak to him and I was preparing myself for me never seeing him again outside of the club because I had this feeling that he wanted nothing to do with me.

Everything was so sudden and surreal. There was no way that Julian was going to be brought back into my life that easily. There was no way the universe was going to magically put him in the club for us to reuinte and have a happily ever after.

I needed to face the facts and the truth was that I was either going to get a brief moment with him or I was never going to see him again. I only had one shot and I didn't want to miss it so I searched all around the place.

I didn't care if I made a bunch of new enemies from all the shoving I was doing, I didn't care about almost breaking my leg from all the stumbling that I was doing, I didn't care about the breath that I was losing, I didn't care about anything but Julian.

I didn't find him.

It was too good to be true.

I felt defeated. I wanted to cry. I wanted to become someone else so that I could just beat myself up until I drew nothing but blood. I deserved it.

I walked to the back of the club to the bathrooms because I needed a quiet place to sit for a moment. I just hoped and prayed that there wasn't anyone having intercourse in there.

The music was becoming a blur and from the sound of it, someone was having sex in one of the bathrooms but it wasn't the mens room so I was good. I reached my hand out to push the door open and when I did the door swung opened and I was immediately attacked with a head that went straight into me.

"Shit, I'm sorry!" He said as he held his head.

I couldn't believe it. "Julie!" I cleared my throat. "I mean, Julian."

He stared at me for a moment as if my face was a barcode and he was having a hard time scanning it. "L-Lucas?" Barcode scanned, he was smiling.

"How have you been?" I asked as I walked into the bathroom.

The door closed and we were still standing pretty close to each other. "I-I'm good. What about you?"

My smile was faltering as I thought about how I was really doing before I reunited with him but I didn't want to waste time with my problems. I was being timed and I felt, as though, it was running out.

"Good," I finally said.

There was this brief silence between us. I had planned everything so perfectly in my head as I was looking for him but all of that prep got lost into the party and I was left with nothing but a blank mind.

"So..." He started. "What are you doing here?"

"I, well, uh." I sighed and ran my fingers through my hair. "It's complicated."

"Not really. You and Neena obviously aren't working out so you came here to get some stress relief."

He knew exactly what was wrong with me. I missed that. "You got me there. Why are you here? Come here often?"

"God, no. I was actually forced here to come by Zane. He wouldn't let me spend my day off doing nothing like I wanted."

I chuckled. "You haven't changed a bit." I gave him a smile as I reached out and brushed my fingers along his cheek. I wanted to kiss him but he grabbed my hand and gently pushed it away.

"Sorry."

"No, I'm sorry." He walked passed me and opened the door. I turned to him. "Hey, do you wanna dance or something?"

He turned to me. I could tell that he was thinking it over for a moment which meant that all I had to do was smile and he was all mine.

"Yea. Why the heck not? I've been doing absolutely nothing since I got here."

I spun out of the bathroom and extended my hand out for him to take. He chuckled. "Shall we?"

He allowed the door to shut as he just stared at me with the happiest smile one could produce. The thought of him blushing made me blush.

He took my hand and we were on our way.