I normally keep my profile happy and I have his something for a while, if you care, thank you. If you don't, that's fine to.
My friends left me. I didn't take it well... I lashed out on them, and bullied them for two weeks. They never said anything. I called them.. things that I'm definitely disappointed in myself for doing this.
I called them things such as 'Hoe,Slut,Fuckhead,Bitch,Fatass Loser'
I hate myself for it. I'm always telling you guys to stay positive and that suicide isn't the choice.
And it isn't, no matter what, it will get better. But god damnit it hurts, it hurts so much. They never cried like I did when they told me that we weren't friends, they didn't get mad. Like I did.
We were friends for six years, I lost them the day I published 'The Deal' it's a short poem I guess.. but I hate being without them so much, and I wanted to die, I wanted to leave that school, I wanted to scream out there names till I lost my voice.
I can't live without them.
I couldn't live without them.
The reason I try to make sure people I know are happy is because I'm not. The thing that makes me most happy in the whole world, is smiles, truly happy smiles.
A rush of joy runs threw me if someone laughs, or smiles.
So I stopped, I stopped being rude to them, and when I told my other friends that I was sad they frowned.
So I haven't told many people.
I bottle it up.
If your sad, or have depression, tell someone.
Please smile.
For me.
Because I can't truly smile anymore that's why I like other smiles.
I love you guys so much.
Please smile. Stay positive
❤️🙏❤️
