one month later
Narrator: "in this past month you started taking the pill and then had a fight with Namjoon. You haven't seen him in or nobody in the past month since you locked yourself in an apartment you rented since company was closed for a bit"
Amy's view
the scene of our argument keeps replaying in my head over and over again
flach back
Namjoon: "what's up Amy why don't you let me touch you anymore?"
Amy: "I just simply don't wasn't to be touched right now witch part don't you understand?"
Namjoon: "I taught I made it clear to you that only I can touch you"
Amy: "what does that have to do with this?"
Namjoon: "you're my girlfriend and sure I want my girlfriend to always let me do her"
I didn't know how to react to that.
Namjoon: "I want you Amy...nobody else just you... I want to hold you and feel you"
Amy: "and you said you would wait until I'm ready to give you all of me"
end of flash back
tears glistening in my eyes. He didn't even try to call me for past 2 week. Making me feel as if I were wrong. What is so wrong about feeling insecure sometimes?. Why is it so hard to understand that you're simply not ready yet?. And my body also changing for some time now. Noticing myself gaining some weight. I tried to exercise but it was all for nothing. What simply made me unsure of what he will think of me. Will he still like me the way i am? or will he simply leave me. Taking my phone i couldn't bear to calling him so i send him a text. Tears running down my cheeks my heart breaking apart, but i had to do it now.
