The playboy

Player

No fucking way I'm letting that happen I said as I ignored gigis dead ass puppy eyes look she was trying to convince me not happening

Please Charlie please we have no choice and we trust him and he will do it without as paying him with no trust of wasting it he's perfect

Are you out of you're mind gigi I will never ever let u date Shawn ii know him he's my best friend are u crazy its a bro code no its a no

Fine then I will just choose a random guy to kiss me in front of my dad

Fine but you're not kissing anyone and if I saw u getting  closer then an act you're and him are dead meat

Okay okay call him and tell him

I'm not doing that you're doing that I don't even have the energy to explain all that to him u do it

Okay what ever u say

I'm gonna head home and sleep okay?

Sleep here if u want the guest room is all ready

Okay I'm going up stairs

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I woke up after the nap I took washed a bit of my face as I was going down stairs I heard Shawn's voice whisper yelling' so we're just gonna pretend we're dating in front of ur dad and Charlie when are we going to tell them the truth ' I stood there confused

I saw Charlie's reaction he will never approve of us Shawn we need to show him that us together wont be so bad gigi answered him calmer

Idk gigi this is really stressing me out

It's will be fine and now we could be us without being afriad of Charlie

So ur saying that ur brother my best friend won't let us date because

Then I decided that was the Time I make my existence clear yes I was mad I was bayond beilife mad but at the same time I don't wanna be a hard phase in something I just want to protec

Shawn I say clenching my jaw

Shawn's eyes goes wide open

Charlie how long have u been there gigi asked nervously trying to play it cool

Long enough I say not breaking eye contect with Shawn

When we're u guys planing on telling me when she gets pregnant I say calmly but making sure I sound pissed because I was

Shawn's face was pale good

I.. I didn't mean to Charlie I can explain

Explian Explian what exactly u breaking the bro code u dating my sister u hiding it from me for God knows how long

How long has this been going on I asked looking between them
They stayed quite and looked down

HOW LONG???! I say pissed now

Since u and Kendall Brock up

I started counting in my head

5 months Shawn cleared

5 months five fucking months and none of u dared to tell me

They looked down it was silence an till Shawn spoke up

This is why we didn't tell u coz u will go all crazy on us

Well obviously I don't want my sister dating a player

A player Shawn says rising a brow at me
Duh

Shawn let's put a laugh like he just heard a joke

Look whose talking a player since he was sixteen running around fucking around and then playing an angel in front of people Shawn says

I look at  him not even showing how much his words hurted and bothered me

Shawn gigi putted her hand on his shoulder

The tension it felt like there wasn't air left in the room me looking dead in to Shawn's eye

You know what this relationship Im done with it and if u guys did five months already why bother telling me right so keep doing what u want and I'm not going to bother any off and talk about this again

Thank you thank you gigi said happily nodded at her

I'm leaving I said as I for sure needed some time to think or get my mind off this problem I did not even relise what was going on or where I was heading until I found my self in front of a club

I entered looking around going to the bar ordering a beer since I didn't want to go hard

After one beer I didn't feel like it Shawn's words kept running through my mind then selenas words

It takes  a big part of me when some one as close as Shawn said that to me I never cared what people thought

Until the other day when I saw Selena I just knew I had to change I have changed its just the reputation left

I needed fresh air I needed to go to my privet place every time I feel sad I go there

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As I reach my safe place the place that I call home more then my house as I put my jacket on the rock and sit down and look at the city

It always looked great at night it felt great it gives me peace but I just can't find that in my mind at the moment

I was struggling I was always insecure about the people I loved and how one day they will drop me for a mistake I did

Flash backs running through my mind from that night I couldn't help but wonder what had gotten in to at that night

I shacked my head removing those thoughts out of my heads it's been a long time I should be over it by now

Still a scar in my soul that aches every time I think of what caused it

As I felt like the weather was getting colder I wore my jacket and got in to the car gave the city one last look then drove away

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