一波Exes來找我。該怎麼辦？！

Chapter 50

He couldn’t obtain what he wanted and his love was unrequited.

Facing this kind of despair, how good would it be to let go?

He had clung onto Bai YueSheng for so long, so long that even his memory was chaotic, making him forget many things.

He had indeed forgotten, but when the night was dark and quiet and he sat alone, he found out bitterly that the things he had forgotten were only the bad things and the memories left were the most precious ones.

He could never forget about the day he had first met Bai YueSheng, or forget about the first words he said to him, the first smile he had given him, the first time he had embraced him and that passionate and delirious first night together.

In his memory Bai YueSheng was so perfect he consumed his entire existence, became his entire world and every piece of skin was engraved with his name.

He had entered his bones and could never be extracted, even if he touched it he was scared of losing everything.

In the times he was able to calm down, Qiu ChangFeng also didn’t understand.

Why was it like this? It was as though his entire existence was so he could wait for this person, as though his only reason for living was to love him. The only thing of importance in his life was keeping him by his side.

So when facing the prospect of losing him, he was lost in the depths of utter despair and blackness – in this world where there would never again be light, made him lose the will to live.

Had he really become crazy? Qiu ChangFeng asked himself this.

But he couldn’t fight it.

In the end Bai YueSheng still cared about him. Qiu ChangFeng this scoundrel had done many things that couldn’t be forgiven, but people’s memories were always so laughable.

When hating someone, you would remember when he lied to you, impeded you, imprisoned you, humiliated you and you would absorb these memories into your bloodstream.

But when you cared about someone then you would remember when he was good to you, and the things he had done for you, his foolish love and boundless sacrifice. The times he had thrown everything away for the the crazed love of you. Those things would rush uncontrollably into your mind and spread through all your body, unable to be dissipated. 

Even without the promotion mission’s requirement, Bai YueSheng didn’t want Qiu ChangFeng to die.

When really thinking about it, his original “see but not save” action made Qiu ChangFeng who he was. He didn’t want to accept but he couldn’t deny the reasoning behind this.

“I do like you.” Bai YueSheng told Qiu ChangFeng gently.

It was only one sentence but Qiu ChangFeng suddenly released him, stared at him in the eyes without any words.

The two people had known each other for almost a thousand years but Bai YueSheng had never, when clear minded, told Qiu ChangFeng that he liked him.

So it was no surprise that Qiu ChangFeng was shocked.

Bai YueSheng raised his hand and stroked his face. He said seriously, “You don’t believe it?”