Lost and found

A mistake.... A failure.... Fukin bullies.....

WARNING!!!!: Contains suicide attempt....

I feel really depressed so I am just putting my feelings into writing... Fukin bullies......

Madis P.O.V.

I walk through the familiar alleyway to the shitty apartment I call home. But then a gang of boys suronded me and I immediatly recondnized their leader. Ryan.

"Well well..." Ryan snickered, walking over to me, "The little mistake found itself in our way..." He snickered, kicking me in the gut and sending me flying to the wall with my hands cluched around my stomach.

As I lay there Ryan walked up to me and kicked me again. His followers came up as if on cue and kicked me, bit me, punched me, and even cut me with a knife but not fataly.

After they were done torturing me, they- they raped me.... I screamed and pleaded for them to stop, they laughed, enjoying my pain while shouting hateful things at me.

"Bitch!!"

"Slut!!"

"Your such a mistake!!"

"A big failure!!"

"Your dad never wanted you why do you think anyone else would!?"

"No one wants you!!"

"Why havent you died already!!"

"Just go kill yourself!!"

"No one loves you!!"

"You think your such a big thing, going to Ouran Academy, but your NOTHING and NOONE will EVER love you so just kill yourself already!!!"

~Bout 30 mins after~

They finally stopped and left me, but not without burning the still-lit cigaretts on my skin. I got myself home and looked for my knife. My thoughts were bouncing around my head, fighting each other.

'Dont do this! What about the host club!?'

'Them!? They never liked me... They just felt pitty on me!'

'Mother would not be pleased...'

'Shes the only one thats ever accepted me for who I really am.... Ill be with her soon...'

I blocked my thoughts. Knowing I wanted to do this. I was hesitant, but wasnt everyone before they commited suicide...?

I found my knife and stood in front of the mirror, looking at myself. I brought the knife to my throat and pushed a bit. It was a bit satisfying, giving myself a slow and painful death for being such a failure.

The door crashed open and I heard two voices and jumped. The knife cut deeper into my throat and I saw Hikaru and Kaoru standing there, their faces were horrified and their mouths hung open.

"Hikaru," I managed to wisper before the darkness engulfed me.

Hikaru's P.O.V.

Kaoru and I were supposed to bring Madi back for a Host Club meeting. She didnt have to come but the boss ordered us to so I guess we had to.

"Madiiiii~" we sung, throwing open the door, not prepared for what we were about to see.

Madi jumped and looked at us. I felt my heart skip a beat and my jaw hang open as I saw the knife slide deeper into her throat. She said something then her eyes rolled back into her head and she collapsed unto the floor.

"KAORU!!!! CALL THE AMBULANCE!!!!" I screamed, throwing myself to Madi and grabbing a bunch of napkins to stop the bleeding.

"H- here you g- g- go M- madi....." I managed to choke out as the tears flooded down my cheeks as I pushed the napkins to the cut, trying to stop the bleeding.

The ambulance seemed to take forever and when they did I went to the nearest nurse and grabbed her sholders. "Will she be ok!?" I practically screamed in her face.

"I- Im sorry.... I- I d- dont know...." she said lowering her head and shaking her head slowley.

The ambulance left with Madi and I entered her house again and picked up the still-bloody knife from where Madi had dropped it and stared at it angrily.

"Why....?" I whispered to myself, "Dosent she like us!?" I yelled the last part, shoving the knife into the wall, making sure the wedged knife could never have been removed and looked around. I saw a picture of the host club. We took it only yesterday and she had it on a small, wodden coffee table in a picture frame made of popsicle sticks.

Madi was in the middle looking pissed and bored, Kyoya writing in his black book with a slight smile on his face, Tamaki glomping Haruhi and Madi, Honey having a mouthful of cake and hugging Madi's waist, Kaoru and I grinning and hugging her from behind and rubbing our cheeks on hers while Mori had a hand on Madi's head smiling slightly.

I took the picture out of the homeade frame and found a letter on the back.

'Dear Mom,

I met some pretty awesome dudes. They call themselves a host club and entertain girls (NOT IN DA BAD WAY!!!) I think of them all as my own family!! I got accepted into the Host Club as a hostess and I guess its kinda fun.... In 4 days it will be your 29th birthday. I wish you were here to see how much ive progressed.... Ryan and his crew keep following me... I dont know when they will strike though.... I also got into Ouran Academy like you always wanted me to. I hope your doing well... Please help me through my troubles....

I love you....

~Your daughter the Madikinz'

I slowly and gentily put the picture back into his frame as if it would shatter into a million peices and looked down at the blood-stained white carpet.

'So she does care....' I thought sadly to myself. My chest hurt at the thought of her dieing and my throat felt choked up.

Is this love?

I SOWWY!!!! I HAD TOOOOOO!!!!!!

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