Her Concealed Life

chapter 5

" I love seeing you smile " Zayan said as he saw Naira smile slightly looking at their wedding picture which Naira had hung inside her wardrobe door. Naira couldn't reply she just looked down .

Zayan went to her and hugged her from behind and said " This day was best day of my life not just because I was completing half my deen ,not just because I was gonna marry the person whom I really wanted to marry but also because somewhere I believed that we are chosen by Allah for each other and since we both feared him we will never wrong each other and never let each other's smile leave them but......." Zayan paused.

"But what Zayan?" Naira asked curiously.

" but I didn't know I was so incapable that I couldn't bring a single smile on your face when you were so sad " he said .

" that's not true Zayan . You always tried your best to keep me happy but it was me who didn't want to get out of my depression. Please don't blame yourself for my foolishness " Naira said as she turned behind to face Zayan.

" do you remember how I stared at you 2 days back when me and mom were in kitchen and you entered? " Zayan asked.

" yes I do and trust me I was feeling so shy at your gaze that I can't describe " Naira confessed.

" do you know why I stared at you that way? " Zayan asked .

" no , why did you stare at me like that? " Naira questioned with confusion clearly shining in her eyes.

" because it had been many days since I had seen you dressed up in good clothes along with your jewellery on " Zayan paused to look into her eyes and then he cupped her face in his palms and spoke again " I don't like seeing you suffer or cry or dull and upset . I like to see my wife nicely dressed with a beautiful smile on her face and I want you to dress up for yourself not to show me or for this world".

Naira just looked down as she was speechless at her husband's concern and love for her . She really didn't know what she had done to deserve a person like Zayan.
As he was truly a kind of person which every girl would desire to have in her life and here she had him all of herself but didn't realise that and was making him feel bad due to her insecurities.

"Look at me love , I know its difficult but just look at the person infront of you and trust him when he is saying that he'll always be there for you " Zayan said and placed a kiss on her forehead and Naira hugged him as she said " I am sorry Zayan. I forgot that your so worried about me . I forgot about your love and care for me . I promise I'll never do it again . I will be happy now for myself and for us , In sha allah".

"And if you don't, I'll do this " Zayan said as he started to tickle her .

"Zayan no " Naira said as she tried to escape from him and ran around the room .

" I am not going to leave you wifey " Zayan said as he ran behind her and when Naira reached bed she took a pillow and threw at Zayan , he caught the pillow and threw it on bed as he climbed on bed to catch Naira and the moment he caught her Naira's leg slipped and both of them fell on bed Zayan below and Naira on top of her. Zayan stared at Naira's facial features and moved a strand of her hair behind her ear he then placed his one hand hon her back and with another he cupped her face , he slowly moved his thumb below her eye and thought how badly stress and pain has affected her causing her get dark cirles .

He then lifted his head up and placed a kiss on both her eyes and Naira could do nothing but blush and its true that no matter for how long your married you will get shy when ever your husband looks at you with love or does some romantic gestures.

He was still looking at her that way when his phone rang and he huffed as he moved away from Naira and she just smiled at unfortunate call timing of her husband.

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"Ammi I have added onions ,curry leaves and mustard seeds to the tadka should I add something else also?" Naira questioned Fiza .

"No beta, that's all its done . Just add a little ghee ,it gives a good taste to gravy and Zayan loves the taste when ghee is present in it and Zayan's mama too she said with her smile getting a little faded but she covered it as she started to say Nazneen's recipes are the best and even this one is her recipe but still the gravy turns out to be more yummy when she cooks it.  She adds a different flavour to all her dishes with same recipe. "

"And that flavour is love " Naira said as Fiza stopped .

"Indeed it is " Fiza agreed " and that smile on your face is adorable and that is what Nazneen always used to tell me . Look Naira we can't change what happened . We can't bring Nazneen back but you have to be happy and live your life the way you would live if she was alive cause apart from her you have a new family and thats Zayan.  You know how much upset he becomes when he sees you upset ? I might sound selfish Naira cause I may seem to be supporting my son but as much as Zayan us my son your my daughter as well and I would do anything to see my daughter smiling always isnt it ? "

"Yes ammi" Naira replied.

"Now plate the table Zayan might be here anytime soon " Fiza said and Naira started to plate the table.

"Assalamualaikum ladies "Zayan said as he walked into the house.

" Walaikumassalam " Fiza and Naira replied.

"How was your day ?" Fiza asked.

" it was ok not bad " Zayan replied.

Zayan freshened up and sat to have dinner while Fiza and Naira joined him.

"Zayan do you remember when did you go out for a long vacation?" Fiza asked.

"I think a year  back with friends but why are you asking that all of a sudden?" Zayan asked.

"Don't you think you should go for a vacation with Naira as well " Fiza said and the couple shared a look with smile .

"Yes mom but I have lots of work and moreover I have to go to India next weak for a conference, I might stay there for a weak" Zayan said.

" I don't mind coming with you to India " Naira said quickly.

" your sure ? cause I might be busy for a lot of time " Zayan said .

"That's ok , I'll manage with that " Naira replied but the smile on Fiza's face vanished as she heard the name of India .

"Naira there are so many beautiful places in the world . Why don't you plan trip to paris?  You can go after Zayan comes back from India " Fiza suggested.

" Ammi paris might be more beautiful than India but India is my birth place and I've never been there , so I really wish to go there " Naira said with lots of hopes in her eyes which Zayan understood as he cut off Fiza when she was again going to say something .

"Lets talk about it later , my trip dates are not yet confirm " Zayan said and Fiza and Naira kept quiet . After finishing dinner Fiza and Naira cleaned the table and left to thier respective rooms.

"Zayan I really wanna visit India " Naira said with lots of emotions in her voice.

" I know that Naira but I don't know why mom doesn't want us to go there . Anyway I'll try to talk to her in morning lets see if she agrees " Zayan replied and continued " and now my dear wife sleep you need rest " .

"As you say " Naira said with a smile.

The couple slept facing each other but with thier minds revolving around the matter of Naira's past, India and why didn't Fiza want them to go to India.

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A update after a very very long time hope I'll update next chapters soon.

As Naira and Zayan I think even we are wondering about same questions well lets see what happens next  .

Wait for twists and turns . Stay excited stay blessed