Colored stories

Steel Blue

( Listening to Billie Eilish helped me put my feelings into this, so if you like her music, I recommend listening while reading this)

Don't come for me
N

ot when I left myself so lonely

Let me be and let me go
Let me drown in this steel blue cold

I do not deserve your loving
Don't you know I'm used to losing?
Why do you want to keep me?
When I'm not worth it...

I'm so afraid to lose you
I'm so afraid that I'll hurt you
And I always feel like I annoy you
So, please just let me let go of you

You know so much
You know me so well
But I try so hard to understand
Why do you love me, in the end?

I'll rather kill my soul
In this cold blue metal storm
I'll give myself to the sea
Than let my failure let you bleed

I will always love you...
But I rather say goodbye then stay to hurt you
You always complete me
But, please leave before I make you hate me

I have gone without goodbye
And I left the sea to decide
My fate and my happiness
That for you I drowned into it's darkness...