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chapter four

m.h.

"maya, wait" echoes in my brain like it's a long tunnel. the echoing words, force me to walk faster and faster.

my converse hit the dirty concrete hard, like my shoes are angry at the ground. a warm tear streams down my rosy cheeks. the cold new york air envelopes me like a hug from a stranger.

i need alcohol. i need a cigarette. i need something, anything.

i pull my box of cigarettes from my back pocket, they smell of regret. it lights up just like i do around lucas.

i feel ashamed, i wish i didn't care about him or anything, otherwise i'd just kill myself.

walking with no destination, i remember a party i got invited to and head in the direction of my destruction.

l.f.

she walked away from me, like im nothing. a sharp pain arose in my chest, a stabbing pain.

she needs help, and since nobody else will help her i have to.