love

part one

"Hi guys" I laughed and wiped away my tears "Uh, something happened.. and uh, Zane and I.. we broke up" I sniffled "I'm not gonna tell you what happened.. I'm sorry, but it's personal and between him and I" tears swelled in my eyes "Uh, I'm sorry.. but I'm going to have a break from YouTube" I was sitting on my bed with the camera in front of me "I just want to say I love you guys, thank you for everything and I might see you again" I turned the camera off.

I uploaded the video, unedited. I read some of the comments, most were very supportive but many were hurtful.

I wrapped myself in my blanket and tried to sleep. It was impossible and I couldn't stop thinking about the events that happened a week ago.

"I'm sorry.. I'm sorry.. Blake, I'm really sorry" Zane sat down in front of me "I didn't mean to, ah, fuck, my head" he rubbed his temples.

"I'm going go get you some medicine" I walked out of the room, hurt, I know he was drunk and he didn't mean to but, he did it.

"Thank you.." Zane said as I passed him the medicine, I grabbed the water bottle from beside the bed and passed it to him " I don't deserve this.. I don't deserve you"

"Why? Just.. why did you do it?"

"I was drunk.. and stupid" I agreed which made him laugh a little "I wish I could go back-"

"You can't, you did it and you pay for he consequences.." he looked up at me and asked if I was leaving him "Uh, I love you Zane, but maybe we need a break"

"I love you too" he sighed "can i give you one last hug?" I laughed and held out my arms for him, he held onto me tight, not wanting to let go, but all good things must come to an end.

I pulled back and kissed his cheek "I'll.. text you?" He nodded his head and I left. I held the tears in until I made it outside. I sat down by the gutter and cried.

"Blake!" David ran out to me "hey.. hey, it okay" he sat down next to me and hugged me "I'm sorry Blake"

I hugged him back "thanks Dave" we sat there for a few minutes and he offered to drive home, he wouldn't take no for an answer so we got in his Tesla "thank you, I love you"

"I love you too B" he grabbed my hand "I'm sorry, he loves you.. he really does, his just-"

"Stupid? Drunk?" He laughed at my suggestions "I know.. his human, we all are and we.. fuck up"

"My favourite quality about you is how you are so understanding" he squeezed my hand.

"I think I'm gonna go to Chicago.. for a bit, see the family" he looked at me and then back at the road.

"Well, I'll miss you" he drove into the garage of my apartment complex "I love you, call me?"

"Thanks, David.. I'll call you" he nodded and I got out of the car. I went to my apartment and booked a flight to Chicago.