We make war that we may live in peace~Aristotie
I awake with Monika in my arms. I didn't want to wake her up so I grabbed my phone and play some music. I wait about twenty minutes until Monika woke up.
Monika: morning
I just take out my head phones and put the on the night stand. She gave me a kiss then got up. She changed and went to talk to harry. I took a shower and changed into normal clothes. I exit the room and head to the cafeteria. When I entered there where alot of people there but no conversations. I get my food and sit down by myself.
Oliver: hey silent boy, no friends, I can see why
Is this how he is trying to make me mad. If it is it isn't working. He must have seen I didn't care so he tried to hit me but a guy with a Canadian flag on his shoulder caught the guys first
Sèb: don't even start Oliver
Oliver: why not
Séb: just don't
Oliver: for now
I finish up my food and head back to the dorm.
Intercom: could we have all opperators to the cafeteria please
Monika: what's going on now
I walk with her to the cafeteria. When we enter there's a view of my body cam from the last mission. All the other operators soon showed up worried and questioning what's going.
Harry: we have suffered more losses
Zofia was the first to speak up.
Zofia: this all started happening when the scum arrived
Harry: this wassnt his fault, watch this
The video started playing. I stood up and tried to walk out but Monika grabbed my arm and sat me back down. I watched them all die a second time.
Harry: as you could see it wassnt his fault
I walk out of the room and sit down. I could have helped them. Now ela, fuze, blitz, smoke, glaz, and jäger are dead. God I'm a failular.this all started happening when I helped. I think on this for what felt like hoirs till monika handed me a cup of water and sat next to me
Monika: you ok
I shake my head no. How could anyone be ok in this situation. Lord I know I haven't be no saint but tell me what I did to deserve this pain.
Monika: it's not your fault ok
Yes it is babe what do you not get. Ah she can't even hear what I'm thinking anyways.
Monika: what could take this off your mind
Nothing at all. I'm going to eat them out now. I stand up and walk to Harry's office.
Harry: what brings you here
I grab a map of the wall and make every white mask base in the UK, USA, germany, and Russia
Harry: how do you want to handle this
I write bomb on a piece of paper and leave. I get back to the dorm and think of how I could live with this pain of being the reason there dead. I guess there in a better place now. I don't know why I said that. Parents tell there kids that to make the calm down. Monika must have noticed my stress because next thing I knew we where on the bed kissing. I cut that shit off before it went any further because I think the writer doesn't like writing lemons and doesn't want to ask DrugAddictBandit to do one for him again. What the hell did I just break the fourth wall? I guess I did. I don't know what I'm thinking but you know what, how are you readers. What. I think I'm losing my mind right now. Umm I think I just need to sleep for now. I take a shower and change into my night wear.
Monika: going to sleep already
I nod yes and fall to sleep pretty quickly.
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silence (rainbow six siege x male reader)
FanfictionY/N has been silent for years due to his vocal cords being crushed. He tries his best to communicate but it all fails. With him being beaten and hurt he join the white mask. Everyone can make a difference without saying a word.