I cried a lot today. It breaks me to my core to not make an 'A' in my class. My 4.0 GPA is going to be gone and I hate my self for it. I have no motivation to study for my finals because even if I make a 100% on my final it wont bring it up to an 'A'. If I would have studied better or put more time in, or not have spent an hour going to chick fil a and spent it studying them maybe I could have passed with a higher grade. I feel so worthless. College is the one thing I feel good in and that is being taken away from me. A lot of people consider me to be this perfect student and that is just not the case. I am compared a lot when it comes to school and I have so much pressure to be the best that I can and that is not good enough. I dread when the final grades come in. I know that this may seem trivial, however, this is so important to me that it causes me to shut down. Having anything less than a 4.0 is a failure. It is a shameful thing. But I need to sleep this off. Maybe the tear stains will be gone I the morning. Though the sorrow may last for the night, joy comes in the morning.
