Eddsworld x male reader

I'm sorry... I need to talk.

Hey guys, it's me. Ashmarringle. Look I'm not doing that swell. But you all make me happy because I can see that you like it. You don't know how much this means to me.

If you meet me you'll think that I'm brave, kind but a little mean, friendly, social, not caring for the mean things people say, and......... happy.

But..... I'm not. I'm scared, yes I'm kind, I be nice so no one knows I'm suffering, I'm not social I get scared to talk in front of a crowd, I make people think the mean things others say don't bother me.....but they hurt like a endless void of darkness that I can't see the way out, I'm sad not happy. I'm sorry.

Don't get me wrong! I appreciate all of you for everything, but depression hurts you a lot. It takes a way your happiness, and leaves you a endless void of self hatred that I can't stop. I don't want people to be like me.

Sad. Depressed. Lonely. Hated. Endless suffering. I love all of you and I don't want you to end up like me and suffer. If you guys hurt I want to make you feel better. If you're sad I want to make you happy, because I want you to smile. If you're depressed I want to make you smile, because you're great. I want to be there for you, because I will always your back. I want you to feel loved, because you are. If you suffer I want to take your pain, because you don't need anything weighing you down.

I want to make every one happy. But I know I can't do it. I can't do alone. But I can't help but feel so alone. You guys are like the Sun and in Pluto. Or you're you and I'm water. I need to come down to Earth, where all of you amazing people are.

Thank you for reading this. I just needed to let go of what I'm dealing with. Myself as a person it's hard to let go.