Poetry By Porcelain Prince

Suicide

Suicide looks beautiful wrapped in loving goodbyes and tender embraces.
You kiss me with passion burning in your eyes though you do not realize this is our last night.
I haven't the heart to tell you.
I know you love me and I would do anything for you.
You are my world.
But knowing I could lose you to a better man makes the future seem like a formidable opponent.
The closer I am to you the more fear clouds my judgement.
I trace hearts on your body and caress your beautiful face.
I swipe the hair from your eyes though you sleep.
I always loved your hair like that.
When you wake you will find a loving note.
The last love letter I will ever write you.
I know you will cry.
I know it will hurt.
But my mind tells me that you don't want me here.
That you do not wish to be mine forever.
My mind tells me that I hurt you by breathing.
By existing.
I know I hurt you.
You tell me I'm the best.
But to myself, I think when I'm gone you'll find another.
You'll be happier.
So my love, I wanted you forever.
I did not lie to you when I said those words.
But upon your lips lovely words are spoken...
But I believe them to be blasphemous lies fed to me by the Serpent of Eden.
I've lost everything when every other woman walked away.
I had to force myself to live.
To will my lungs to breathe.
To force my heart to beat.

But losing you would spell my doom.
There would be no sun.
No stars,
No moon,
No oxygen if you left.
I wish to die on my own terms.
I kiss your head as you sleep softly.
Suicide looks beautiful wrapped in loving Good-Byes and tender embraces...